I’ll never forget when I began my healing journey. I felt so alone for all those years. Like I was floating on this deserted island waiting for someone to recognize what was happening and begin to see things from my perspective. I had so many questions. “Why is it I’m the only one who believes there is another way?” “Why do I feel like everyone is asleep and I am the crazy one who sees what is really going on?” “Am I crazy? Or is everyone else just numb?”
I began to think we were living in a world of institutionalized slavery. One person after another was being programmed into believing healing only happened through medicine and that the ceilings that were available to them was all we could expect and all that we deserved. I speak about this repeatedly in my book, “Transcending Limitations” but more importantly breaking through a matrix of codependent societal behaviors was the secret to my success.
If you are wondering how to shift your life and what to do next at your current crossroads or if you know someone who is standing at the doorway of choices wondering what to do next perhaps contemplate this point of reference when you come to the end of the road you have always known and traveled upon.
Sometimes failure and falling down again can be exactly what we need to live our greatest life… here is something that may help inspire you or someone you know…
Learning to fly…
You must become completely related to what you want in your life.
You must feel the sensations and the knowing’s that live in your heart.
Many of us walk around as if the weight of the world is on our shoulders. Unconsciously stuck in a pattern or repertoire of the things that we don’t want.
How do we become something other than what is happening all around us. Let go of what you know. Let go of the mind and only live through the heart.
We can not create what we want by referencing what is currently happening.
We must intuitively live.
We must keenly taste.
We must passionately feel.
Let the light shine through. No matter what.
You might have the weight of two worlds on your shoulders…. Get related to it… let it crack you… let it open you to desperation. Let yourself fall into the abyss of imperfection. Then watch… just be… stay in the naad of what is happening. Set yourself feel.
Feel it all. The doubts, the fears, the angst, the heartache, the yuck, the imperfection, the everything.
Its darkness… and in the darkness… only light can shine.
In the darkness… only light prevails.
We must be nothing like we were in the past. Awareness never allows anything to stay and always allows change to happen. No matter what.
Awareness that this is happening combined with allowing ourselves to fall and feel again breaks us open to freedom.
No matter what.
What are you afraid of?
What is aching within your heart?
What do you want and why is it not showing up? Why are you stuck…. Why are you caged… why do you remain where you are?
Its right there inside you. Put your attention on it…. Feel it… get related to it… and let it scream. Let it tantrum. Let it feel. Let it feed your body with all the things you are afraid of. Let yourself die.
When you allow your heart to break… when you allow it to fall into the shadow… something brilliant is allowed to happen… it becomes reborn… AGAIN.
It falls apart… it breaks… it scatters… it hurts…. Oh, and it hurts so much. It longs for things to be different. And that is beautiful.
We want that… we want to feel it all.
When we truly feel we finally see the charismatic ache within the heart with gentle eyes smiling at you to just let go.
Then we get to pick up the pieces again. And put it back together better than anything we could have ever expected it to be with our minds. And only fully longed for and felt for with our hearts.
Its greater, than anything you can ever even imagine. It lives through the heart. Only in the heart.
But when there is a cocoon around the heart protecting it… we must break it open and break it free… again.
We need to be more connected, more related, and more in love than ever before… that is what the sadness is calling us to do. Be more, let it out, feel it all. Just be intuit.
Life is full of death.
Birth is full of dying.
Light is full of dark.
We go one direction, and then we bounce back and go the other direction.
We just are.
And we know that we must feel, we must sense, and then we know… what glorious things may come.
But when we hesitate, when we don’t just jump in, we lose our connection to all that is. We miss it… it just passes by and then we are hit with the realizations later of the would haves, should haves, could haves… if only we had done it different.
And what good does that do?
What are you afraid of?
When we allow our hearts to break repeatedly, we all of a sudden wake up to the realization that we are meant to feel deeply, to cry profusely, to weep in longing for everything to be different.
This is waking up.
If we live protected, we become afraid to fly. If we live in safety, we remain caged. Waking up to our failures is one of life’s greatest gifts.
Only in the full awakening is the bliss we are seeking.
We have longings, we have wants, we have so much to experience.
Open your eyes and see, the way our horizons meet, and the way you can match up with all that you desire.
We must dive deep into the shadows, become the shadows, get related to the darkness… before we can truly become the light.
Stop glossing it over, taking breadcrumbs, or allowing things to just remain where they are.
Break open and break yourself free.
Fall and fail again.
Because in the falling… in the failure… WE GET TO CHOOSE AGAIN.
We get to pick up the pieces we want and leave the rest.
Pay attention, listen to your heart…. and you will know… here it is again and this time I’m jumping all in… no matter what.
This time it will be different…
You will get 3 steps further than before…. And you may even take 6 steps backward… but then you will go 9 steps forward. And one day you will leap… one day you will fly.
Do it anyway.
It’s coming… it’s getting closer…
I promise it’s almost here.
It’s times like these, when we fail and fail again that we get to break apart all we have ever known and then have the opportunity to build again. The rebuilding means we get to open ourselves to new life, new people, new places and new things. In the newness of it all is when we come upon partnerships that will attract the miraculous. And only this can occur with ashes and dust.
In the coming new year ahead consider receiving the help you need to learn to fly. Here are some opportunities to help you learn…
Sometimes we need some personal healing session to shatter the dark and transcend us into the light… our guides show us the path.