When Ethan was born I was stretched into a world that did not exist at the time. It was a world that I had to create. A world of miracles, synchronicities, strength, and an internal knowing that healing is possible. That miracles are the truth and nothing can hold you back from realizing your true purpose and what you came here to become.
23 years ago I began as part of an entourage. An entourage serving the LIGHT. I didnt realize it at the time, there was a group of wayshowers beginning the long journey ahead that you are now reaping the rewards. We were spread across the world, made to begin the long journey, believing we were alone. What we didn’t know is that as we grew stronger in the light, little by little, deeper and deeper in the truth we would one day grow stronger and unite with each other and the world. We are the wayshowers of the light. We lead, guide, and direct people into their loving fearlessness. Where there is will, where there is light, however small it may be, we will find a way to shine.
The book I wrote about my journey through Ethan’s healing, is just a small snap shot of what needed to happen to change the way I viewed the world and what was possible, leading us to the miraculous. I will never stop believing in the purpose. To inspire you to find your own way. We have gifts. Everyone has a contribution to make in this tapestry of golden grid we are making of this world and this universe. If you find it in your hands and can make the words your own… apply them to your own life and watch how your world will unfold into the miraculous like it has for mine and our family. (Book available for purchase here. )
Reiki was always a part of this journey, it’s what led me to believe in the healing power of love. And for that… I am proud to say that new offerings and trainings are just around the corner. Join me at one of these events.
And if you are looking to unite with Women of Light and connect to the Ancestors of Light through the masters, sages, angels, and priesetesses all around you… join me at this home event at my studio on Winwood. You will not be disapointed.
And of course… come receive a 1:1 session to shift your body and mind out of pain and suffering on any level and into pure energy in motion bliss with the strength capable of rising above all perceived issues. I truly believe.
Lastly, kundalini every Tuesday and Thursday… it teaches you how to ascend and become one with your own light. Truly an amazing practice and a village of tribal support every week.
We tend to look at our lives through a lens of emotional energy that creates overwhelm and a sense of seperation. This can sometimes further lead to an energy of ‘shut down’ and an unwillingness to become related to the truth of what we really feel. We ‘cut our selves’ off from feelings and sensations because we decide it will hurt too much to ‘go there’. We also tend to do this because if we ‘open ourselves’ back up we may hurt or the fear of pain may be so great we desperately feel we will never make it. We may even have a fear so deep we feel as if we could actually die. This may seem extreme and it often feels this extreme for many of us.
This is an aspect of trauma. It can be a specific event of trauma that happened many years ago, let’s say when we were a child, or it can be trauma that has built up over time from one disappointment to the next. These traumas can be the root cause as to why we make unconscious life choices. These life choices end up leading us down a path that may or may not be a part of our highest potential. We may keep subconsciously going on this path thinking we are doing what needs to be done just to get to where we think we may want to be only to realise when we get there that it is not what we really wanted. Yet still, we keep trying and keep finding the way we always did things before just doesn’t work anymore. No matter how many times we try and no matter what we do it just feels as though we are spinning our wheels.
Most of the time, this is because we are trying to solve the problem with the mind that created the problem in the first place. This just doesnt work.
Meaning, we have been conditioned to believe we can solve our lives like we solve an equation. If I keep doing things in the way it has always been done then it will eventually change. And it just doesn’t. No matter how many times we try and no matter how many ways we apporach this situation we get nothing accomplished. Repeatedly, we find ourselves in the same issues with the same people and our ‘play’ we have created. It simply no longer works because we are trying to solve something with the mind that thinks we have to figure it out.
We can keep approaching these situations in the way we have always done and we can keep coming up frustrated. Until we decide to do things differently. Except it is not that easy to decide with the mind when we are trapped in lower emotional patterns. Many of us either blame ourselves or the outside world for our problems. This is the very reason why we remain trapped and unable to move foward. It’s one of the many reasons why we don’t reach our goals or never seem to ascend to the next level in our lives.
We are not meant to stay where we are and nor are we supposed to keep spinning our wheels. We are meant to shift, grow, sense, shed, and become more. It’s a cycle of birth, living, death and rebirth that is supposed to help us keep going, moving higher and higher into stages of elevation that can be blissful and effortless if we allow it to be.
Unfortunately, many of us become stuck in the overwhelm feeling defeated and not good enough thinking and believing we have failed. When in actuality we only need to move to the other side through sensation. What we think is a problem remains a problem because our minds created a problem based off of stored lower emotions forgetting to tune back into our hearts to sense and feel what is truly happening.
When we open up to sensing and feeling and allow the body to speak we finally bubble up the stored fears and lower emotions unconsciously navigating our life. Our stored lower emotional energy was keeping us in a perpetual motion of loop experiences keeping us where we are. Recreating the same experiences until we finally allow the gift through sensation to break us through to the other side.
When we stop, sense, and feel into a moment we finally allow this congestion to move and transform and finally release. What we were doing with the mind wasn’t working because it was stored energy fragmenting our lives and creating chaos. We just need to clean it up by being in the experience, breathing into it, and allowing the stored energy pattern to dissolve. Thus we can then move into new expereinces unlike anything we have ever experienced. Every times we move these lower emotional patterns and shift the energy within ourselves and all aound us we re-position our lives, opening up to more possibility. In the moment we allow this, we become the opportunity and new awarenesses drop in.
There is no need to remain trapped in the stories and dramas of life and our life frees to a new level of expereineces unlike anything we could ever imagine with our minds.
This is the beauty of the heart consicousness that allows us to break free from lower emotions and move us to the other side into elation.
As we go through our next portal in our lives, through the fall equinox allow this perspective to be your new framework navigating your life. Here are some ways to cultivate and enhance this aspect.
On Friday, September 22nd into Saturday, September 23rd we mark the transition from the longest day of the year into the gradual progression towards the shortest day of the year. The fall equinox is upon us. The significance of this moment… at precisely 1:50am central time on Saturday the 23rd we are presented with equal day hours and equal night time hours across the globe as the sun crosses the earth’s equator from north to south. It is a point in our global community where we can bring in global balance. During this time there is an opportunity to shift our own consciousness and spiritually merge into our own personal truth. Meaning, our previous goals and aspirations are now harvested and we are preparing to be taken to the next level of our alignment, whatever we may determine that to be.
It is an opportunity to recognize our accomplishments and remain in sincere gratitude for the help of the universe bringing us closer to our desires. It is a time to pause, give thanks, and begin to contemplate our next cycle of celestial rebirthing. We celebrate our prosperity as we begin to nourish the next cycle of development beginning to unfold before us. As we begin the descent into the darker months we honor and internally nurture the next phase of our goals by continuing to refine and strengthen our talents. It is truly a sacred time.
This is the significance of merging with the Cosmic Mother and the opportunities before us calling us to unite with our Divine Sovereign Truth.
As we acknowledge and harvest we also begin directing our intentions. We refine and enhance our personal alchemical process.
The darker months unite us with the cosmic mother, the womb of creation. We enter into the next phase of comfort and reassurance as we reaffirm we are on the right path. Summer moved us into a grander vision as we spread our wings and either learned to fly or elevated our skills into acrobatic miraculous measures. We have gained an undeniable understanding of who we are and what we desire to bring forth during this next phase of internal growth and nourishment.
We realize we are capable of extending ourselves further than ever before and we desire to continue to diligently work on the next phase of our expressions of truth. We faithfully begin to enter into the rebirthing womb of the cosmic mother. We intend to cultivate our desires by allowing time to refine creative projects and develop new aspirations as we merge closer to our soul’s purpose and spirit’s joy. We set our heart’s intentions forward on the next 6 months knowing that as we envision our future in this NOW moment, all will come into fruition as we prepare our rebirthing in the Spring – the emergence of the Cosmic Father.
This is truly a time of refined learning, more tuning within, and deeper understanding of our truth.
We ready ourselves for the next journey by honoring where we are and envisioning what else will come. We walk side by side with our highest potential and holding sacred our divine sovereign soul’s purpose and spirit’s joy.
A sacred time indeed.
In honor of this time…. i invite you to a sacred ceremony.
THE COSMIC MOTHER & OUR DIVINE TRUTH
This is a two hour evening dedicated to honoring the divinity within through sacred ceremony and activation meditations.
The unified chakras, light body consciousness, and active manifestation processes will be some of the evening content.
It is my goal to honor how far you have come and help you learn how to activate and enhance the next 6 months of the sacred time of darkness as we enter upon the womb of the cosmic mother. An inspiring opportunity to move consciously into the next 6 months of our highest potential.
Then if it feels right and good for you… I encourage you to continue to…
MAXIMIZE THE FALL EQUINOX ENERGY & ACCELERATE YOUR REBIRTHING PROCESS THROUGH
THE SANDWICH CONNECTION
The Sandwich Connection – Rebirth your life in 6 weeks and actively manifest for the next 6 months.
The Sandwich Connection will begin on September 25th marking the next 6 month process with 6 weeks of coaching & learning how to incorporate ritual and divine sovereign techniques into your day while enhancing the highest potential possible and infusing spiritual concepts. This course defines your goals for the next 6 months and accelerates your manifestation process by zoning in on your soul’s purpose and spirit’s joy in 6 main areas of life; Career/Purpose, family, relationships, health, spirit, and prosperity. Thereby enhancing your ability to manifest your exact goals and desires for this next 6 months of the rebirthing process.
Take advantage of this sacred time of year and learn how to allow the sacred course of the cycles of the universe can help you elevate and enhance your time here on Earth. Click on the links today to sign up for your spot. More website information here.
Reiki is universal life force energy beginning to be understood by the general public. I like to think of reiki as a direct connection to Consiousness with a capital ‘C’. It is universal life force energy that has the capacity to upgrade our energy to greater versions of ourselves that can be tuned into and tapped into miracles. I discovered this about 20 years ago and it keeps me humbled today.
I wrote about “Why I do Reiki” in a recent blog where I briefly spoke about many of the reasons I find Reiki an asset to almost any practice. It is NOT an alternative therapy and it IS complimentary to many of the day to day activities we already engage. Reiki has been a part of me for so long that it just is in everything I do. From therapy related roles, to being a parent, cleaning my own house, to consulting with businesses, to workshops, and life changing programs I offer on a regular basis. It is infused in everything.
I am attaching an article on the scientific ‘normalcy’ of Reiki and how it is studied and proven to shift energy which creates a more neutral / zero point balance within people, places, and things allowing for healing and accelerated shifts in consciousness (little ‘c’ on purpose) to higher more connected states of awareness and a return back to Consciousness itself (capital ‘C’ on purpose). Understand? (wink, wink)
I also want to invite you to learn Reiki with me. I’m teaching at Black Cat Yoga in Libertyville, IL this coming Friday thru Sunday and again in October (links here). AND I am extending this really great possibility IF you would like to learn but scheduling and distance is a problem… we can learn REIKI REMOTELY!
Because energy has no bounds and I perform services online all the time with energy clearing and reiki sessions the possibility of learning reiki and feeling and personally embodying the energy IS absolutely what we CAN do.
14 hours of reflection on my drive back from Colorado.
I just returned from a long drive out to Denver, Colorado. It’s about 14 hours. Coming from Illinois it is very serene, beautiful, and eloquently elongated ride through the countryside of Iowa, Nebraska, & Colorado. There is something I love about hoping in a car and going for a ride across country. Driving just brings a serenity and state of mind that allows for clean thinking and being along the routes of the beautiful country we live upon. I’ve driven up the coast from Arizona to California, driven across from Arizona, thru New Mexico, Texas, Oklahoma, Missouri, to Illinois. I’ve driven down through Kentucky, Tennessee, Alabama, Georgia, Mississippi, and Florida. Across the country again through Indiana, Ohio, Pennsylvania, New York State, Vermont, New Hampshire, Maine, Massachusetts, Rhode Island, Connecticut, and New York City. I’ve gone through Virginia, North Carolina, & South Carolina.
With all of these trips there is always one connecting thread, ‘wherever we go and whatever we do, there we are.’ We see what we want to see in every moment. We see with the eyes that come from the perceptions of our inner truth. It doesn’t matter where I go or what I do I always see in others a reflection of what is truly within myself. Everyone is a reflection of a facet of a diamond with which we all contain. Truly we are all facets of the same diamond reflecting upon one another an aspect of ourselves.
This one recent trip out to Colorado was a significant turning point in our family. My middle son made his final transition over to college. It has taken him several extra years as a high school graduate of 2021. Well worth the wait, he entered upon a new chapter in his life. For this, as a parent it comes with mixed emotions. Relieved, he has finally come into his own grounded stated of awareness that took the time to reflect what was truly important to him and what he wanted to do with these next years of his life. Sorrowful, I don’t get to see him everyday and look into his love filled eyes of purity that shine upon you when he connects. Delighted, he is becoming a self empowered man and gaining skills and confidence daily. Joyful, this new beginning is happening for us all.
After the long awaited anticipation of this time was finally here and after we spent the past week unloading his new life it finally came upon me the time to reflect on my solo 14 hour drive back from Colorado. I savored this time with myself. Allowing to work through every emotional wave of instability, doubt, and fear that would surface as I contemplated all the memories of our past 20 years together. I felt hollows and depths within my heart that I was never aware of until this long drive. Not trying to figure it out and allowing the memories, the regrets, the excitements, the wins and the losses of his life in our family come to surface. I have my version and he of course, he has his. As I completely let go and allow for the new relationship that will be forming between our family to unfold I look back at all the events in our life containing Aiden with complete honor. I am honored to be his mother and friend. Honored that he allowed me to enter into one facet of his life for such a short time. I hold new hopes of a new life that will be filled with more diamond moments of Aiden and all the love that he offered in this stage of his life. I look forward to more and how our family dynamic continues to evolve and transition over to new possibilities for us all. A beautiful dance we get to do where we think we know the next steps and then have to just go with the flow of the music.
From this day and every day, I will allow for new versions of all of us to come forward. Once someone shifts to a new level in our life everyone gets to try out other versions of themselves. For this, I am thankful. Now we get to see what else is just around the corner.
Sometimes change can be difficult and sometimes change comes with great relief and sometimes change is exactly what we needed but didn’t know we needed it until we find ourselves in the change itself. The thing is, we wake up new everyday. We are never the same as we were yesterday, nor shall we ever be. The only thing that stays the same is the idea that there is always change. And that is good.
In Kundalini yoga, there is a mantra, “Sa Ta Na Ma”. It’s about change. How we go through the seasons of life through all the seasons of change and living fully in every way possible. It is a mantra of reflection, allowing, and cycles. When it is repeated for 11 minutes it begins to allow ourselves to sink deeply into change with the new heart felt understanding that with love and living change will always be there and embracing this constant is the way though many perceived obstacles in our lives. It has been said, to be the change you would like to see in another. For me, I like to see people evolve and become more versions of themselves through simple change by breathing into life and allowing what speaks in our heart to live through our day to day actions. I believe in love and how the love of life always changes us for good. When we allow we evolve and shift into something brighter as we stay present, listen, and let go.
And much like the new season of fall that is upon us, as we witness the leaves drift to the ground, we get to welcome more changes and more seasons taking us further along on our journey we get to call “life”. My highest hope is that you welcome change, allow it to unfold, and that it comes effortlessly into existence through drifting peace that is all around us.
And if it ever seems to be a struggle, I pray you take the time to be still and know “it’s only change” the forever constant we will always have within our hearts. I pray you will reach into the stillness of your heart and allow for your dance to flow through you taking you to the next steps of your life.
Here are some offerings in the upcoming weeks:
Sunday, 9/10
September2023
Reiki Share for Practitioners, Friends & Family Experience an ancient healing modality with practitioners who are collaborating to learn and elevate their skills. Meditation, reiki requests, and practice will fill the evening. Sign up in advance here
6pm-8pmLake Forest
Friday, 9/15 & Sat. 9/16
September 2023
Reiki 1 Certification at Black Cat Yoga Reiki is for parents, teachers, business professionals, health professionals and anyone looking to bring clarity, vision, balance, and focus into their career, family, relationships, health, & spirit. Reiki helps to create abundant health and clarity in all areas of life. Learn how. Sign up here and more information
Reiki 2 Certification at Black Cat Yoga You must be level 1 certified. Learn how to bring in the next level of energy to help elevate your practice, create harmony, strengthen your connection with your higher self, and elevate your ability to synchronize and enhance your life. You are attuned to the next three symbols and we practice using them in all areas of life from personal to professional. These symbols will elevate your practice. Synchronicities and balanced life living in harmony with your life goals and desires is a side effect! Sign up in advance
Sunday 9am – 1:15pm Back Cat Yoga Libertyville
Friday, 9/22
September2023
Goddess Workshop – The Cosmic Mother & Our Divine Truth Return to your internal truth. The divinity residing within you. Be activated to fully ground your powerful gifts into the new earth frequency filled with light and strong powerful divine mother love. Fully embrace and become the 144 qualities of divine love. Immerse in transformational energy through light body activations. More information here
Friday 6:30-8:30pmWinwood Retreats, Lake Forest
Mondays beginning September 25th 6-8pm
September thru October2023
Sandwich Connection – Surround yourself with purpose and joy – ONLINE This 6 week program will bring purpose and joy back into your life through community. We will find your soul’s purpose and spirit’s joy reconnecting you to a life worth living. Our connection with spirit through a ritual filled life creates miracles when we pair this connection with a desire to manifest what we truly want in 6 areas of our life: family, relationships, career/purpose, prosperity, health and spirit. When we are aligned, life is effortless and miracles manifest at accelerated heights. First we must tune in and tap into spirit and then the rest is history. We support each other, we manifest for each other, and we create dreams for each other in this supportive and life changing group. More information here
Monday evenings 7:00pm – 9:00pmOnline
Friday September 29th 6:30-8pm
September 2023
Ancestral Clearing CircleHave you ever wondered what kind of impact the energy of our ancestors and lineage has on our current reality? Why do certain physical and emotional issues keep reoccurring in life? What can we do about these things and how can we possibly shift our current reality to line up with a completely different outcome more in line with our purpose + joy? Come ready to shift your energy and vibrationally attune to your more authentic self through energy clearings and meditations. Sign up online here
3 sessions purchased in advanced for $80 each Do something special for yourself and your family… purchase 1 hour intuitive energy healing sessions. 3 sessions at $80 each for $240. Normally $125 each. Includes reiki, craniosacral therapy, crystal sound, and any combination of my 22 years of experience. Online or in-person. CONTACT ME 224-500-7797
July ONLYIn-Person Lake Forest or On-Line Zoom
Reiki & Healing Energy
Sunday July 30th
In Person POP-UP Reiki + Meditation (upstairs) Description Experience the high vibration and meditative benefits of Reiki. In this 75-minute class we will discuss and experience the benefits of reiki energy and how it can help to alleviate all types of stress and anxiety as well as enhance one’s daily self-care, yoga, & meditative practice for individuals and families. https://www.blackcatyogastudio.com/schedule
Sunday July 30th 6:00-7:15pmBlack Cat Yoga Libertyville
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Blessings,
Jennifer Lauren
IntuitLove.com
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Our lives are constantly moving forward, no matter what. Everything keeps going…moving…shifting…changing. There is no stopping change. It just happens. We all change. We all shift. It is inevitable.
Everything around us is a representation of this. The cycles of life are present everywhere. In kundalini yoga there is the mantra Sa Ta Na Ma…birth, life, death, rebirth. Then there are the seasons of mother earth…winter, spring, summer, and fall. We also have the four directions…north, south, east, west. We have four basic elements around us everywhere…earth, air, fire, and water. The cycles of life are intertwined and a living and breathing part of all stages, all realms, all disciplines, all environments, all institutions. These stages are a part of everything, everyone, and everywhere. Change is the only thing that is constant. It is a part of us.
I have difficulty with change. I usually stay where I am until forced to go forward. It can be one of my largest assets and one of my biggest detriments.
This became so apparent to me the other morning. As I was practicing kundalini yoga, breath, and meditation… I was feeling a sense of hesitation. I did not feel fully present and was having difficulty moving through certain postures.
This is not the first time I have been present to the resistance with my practice. I decided to continue to only focus on the techniques of the breath pattern and the formation of the postures and allowed myself the freedom to explore the sensations that were coming up. First, I began focusing my breathing… I breathed into the resistance. With breath control, I stayed present to the energy and allowed the energy to naturally move on its own. Then I decided to breathe light into any area of my body containing resistance. I stayed out of all the mind chatter. Allowed all thoughts to just wander away. And continued to only breathe and practice. And things began to shift. They started to unfold. The fears began to unravel all on their own. All I did was breathe, move through the postures, and allow the thoughts to just drift away. I kept going. Taking the breath to the next level. I used an 8 counted breath, inhaling deeply for 8 counts, suspending my breath, and then exhaled completely for another count of 8. With repetition and persistence, I began to shift even more. My body began to relax, my nervous system aligned, and my mind silenced. The intensity subsided, the constrictions softened, and space began to emerge. The breath and the postures became effortless and flowing. And suddenly, yoga became my friend again.
I sank deeper and deeper into my practice. I became rooted and all obstacles ceased to be present.
Suddenly, there was nothing left but the air around me, the water in front of me, the earth below me, and the fire within me. I became the cycle. The cycle became me. And in that moment, nothing but stillness remained, and the greatest gift emerged. Stillness became the doorway taking me to a perception without limitation and full of creative possibility.
Thoughts may come and go, cycles continue, and seasons change. We have breath and choice. By choosing to breathe through the sensations it is possible to gain access to a reality where resistance no longer exists. ~Jennifer Lauren, IntuitLove
We must wonder every day. We must take the time to turn every lower negative thought into a game of wonder. We must do as a child does. Wonder in every way. We can wonder about everything, every person, place, and thing. Wondering can look something like this:
I wonder if I could change this enormous house into a huge garden or a bungalow for homeless people!
I wonder what it would be like to rollerblade from Illinois to Florida!
I wonder what would happen if I kept wondering about all the wonderful things I wonder about!
Many of us lost the capability to wonder in adulthood. We forgot what it feels like to wonder. When did the seriousness become us? We must return to the realm of wondering. If we are to transform this world into the New Earth, we must wonder about everything that comes into our lives. Wonder uses imagination and it brings in creativity, fun, joy, and expansion. It never judges or fills our lives with mental thoughts of limitation and “I can’t”. It always asks, “I wonder” and follows it up with imagination and elated being.
I wonder what wonderful things will happen today? Wondering, wonders to the universe and then the universe smiles back with amazing answers of grace and gratitude recognizing the purpose of life is experiencing the ocean instead of a cup from the ocean. “I wonder” brings in unlimited expectation, freedom, expansion, joy, and love. It elevates, protects, and enhances everyone and everything it meets. There is no answer of “no” and only an answer of “I wonder”. And as we ask, the answers that come to us are limitless opportunity. To get to this place, we must ‘wonder’ what it would take to get here and, how we can allow the energy of “I wonder” to transform our lives.
Can you wonder with an inquisitive childlike mind about everything that is happening around you? Even during a conversation that you don’t want to be in. Even amidst the conversation that is a struggle to keep alive. The topic may be dragging on and an enormously difficult time is spent connecting. Suddenly, your child steps in and lightens up the density of the situation with “I wonder how I can connect and lighten this conversation?” You begin to wonder about all types of possibilities and suddenly, the words of a joke come wondering in, lightening up the mood. You tell the joke with such ease and joy that by the end, everyone is laughing and connecting. Now you have 5 new people and 5 new connections who have literally lightened up and experienced how ingeniously fun life can become. This is the magic of “I wonder.” It helps everyone become as a child with an enlightening smile… it just lightens up life!
When you see a limitation… You ask, “I wonder” what it would be like to be without this limitation. You question everything and then you sense and feel within your body where the restriction lays. Where do I feel this in my body? Because when we see something that stands in the way, it is only because we hold something within ourselves that is keeping us from seeing that this limitation is not even real. It is an illusion.
Remember, this is directly connected to the heart. If we see something out there as limiting and frustrating, then we go deeper and take care of our own frustrations that are keeping us from wondering. We can wonder to a state of elevation lifting us higher to possibilities once thought as impossible. Ideally, we become everything that is possible. This is the imagination that is more important than mental knowledge. As we open to the possibility of wondering even more than we already are we give permission for absolutely everything to show up. Try it.
I will never forget sitting in the car with little Ethan in the car seat at a gas station waiting for the car to finish refueling. We just brought Ethan home from the hospital. As I sat waiting, Ethan was sleeping soundly, and I gazed out the front window. I was still in some shock over the new life that was unfolding before us. I was anticipating all the changes we would have to make to adjust to all the medical devices that would fill his newly decorated room and the extra supplies that would have to be stored away.
As I sat there gazing in subtle anxious wonder, I focused on a person running in the distance. This person was out for a jog, running in the direction towards us. As he approached a thought occurred to me, “I wonder what would happen if we could get Ethan to run? I wonder if this is possible?” This was astronomically impossible according to what we were told by the doctors only hours before leaving the hospital. We had already made our upcoming appointments that would be centered around all the things that were wrong with Ethan and his newly developing disabled body.
Despite these thoughts, I continued to gaze out the window and wonder. I wondered if despite all the horrible things the doctors told us about Ethan’s new life if he could learn to walk anyway. I wondered what it would take and how we could make it happen. I wondered if we could make leg braces to support his legs to give him that feeling of strength. I wondered if there were people who would join me in this dream. I wondered what kinds of foods and supplements we could use to help him. I wondered. I just sat there watching the runner inch closer and closer and my mind raced with wonder as my heart began to climb in vibrational joy.
I was no longer caught in anxiety and despair over the day-to-day things I was going to have to do to help Ethan survive. I was now caught up in the wondering of how I was going to help him thrive. Simply by sitting and wondering and being inspired by a runner off in the distance my heart began to sing, wondering about all possibility and how we were going to bridge wonder and reality together so that our dreams would manifest. In that one wonderful moment everything shifted and wondering about doing the impossible became our heightened reality.
When you wonder about things all day long, it will bring up your limiting beliefs about life. When this happens, notice how it holds a restriction in your body. This is your opportunity to free this area by opening to wonder while the universe magically drops inspiration into your heart. This opens you to the possibility of seeing, sensing, and knowing that the unlimited will show up. Wondering helps us believe in the possible before it even happens. We must know with absolute certainty anything is possible before it happens.
As we work in the realm of “wondering” we are working with our hearts to create amazing answers to life’s dilemmas. These are just waiting and wanting to be revealed. Everything can happen, will happen, and is happening. Everything.
At any given moment there is something floating out there in the energy of the universe with a new idea, a new solution, and a new answer to anything that you wonder about. It is this way because “I wonder” is a highly creative energy filled with spirit and imagination. When we connect with the spirit of joy, imagination, love, and creativity there is no way that anything less than this can show up.
This does require practice. We must train ourselves to wonder as if we would train our body to learn a new exercise such as running, weightlifting, or any number of activities. We must train ourselves to become our limitless selves. We must wonder every day, multiple times of the day. One hundred times a day we must imagine, we must create, we must elevate. No matter what we believe. No matter what our situation and no matter how far down the rabbit hole we have gone, we can still wonder. It is our job to wake up and see our shortcomings, see our limitations, and then turn them around. This is our way. This is our practice. This is what we are to accomplish individually and collectively.
Therefore, we elevate, and through elevation, we naturally return to the very thing we are. We are meant to transcend all limitations in every way possible. No matter what. There is always an answer and frequently it is something greater than you can ever dream or imagine yourself. This is why we pray, “This or something greater”. Positive expectation plants the seeds of trust in anticipation of the growth. We hold the vision and let go of the outcome. Meaning, I see it, I hold it, and I remain open to it or something better showing up which creates elevation and advance knowing to drop in. This is how masters become masters. They tap into their questioning of “Why not?” Let us see, let us open to the possibility, let us create, and let us do this. Then they invest all their heart and love into expansion in that area, always remaining open to all possibilities, and allowing their minds to be the passengers that help to lead, guide, and direct.
The heart knows. The heart is connected to all that is. The heart is creativity. The heart is imagination. The heart is elevated, expansive, enhanced, an amazing love unlike most have ever experienced before. It is only through the heart that everything can and will and does happen. This is your oneness with all that is, which is how true miracles happen all the time. Then you realize there is no turning back, no other way to live, but to fully give and to love through the heart. The heart can become everything in this universe, and it is right there. Always waiting for you, within yourself. Just listen to the voice. It knows the way. Open, expand, become, because you are the ocean.
Lately, I have been wondering… what is truly important? There are a lot of things we may value…maybe it is our career, our family, our life purpose, and how we add something precious to this world. Or maybe for some of us it is just about living day to day and moment to moment because that is just where we are right now. Sometimes life can be exciting and full of incredible moments of elation and triumph and sometimes life can seem painful and sorrowful.
There are moments in our lives when all we can do is get through to the next day and there are times when we never want the day to end because things are going that well. Still further, sometimes striving to have a balance between the two polarities can be our greatest challenge.
The older I get, the more I realize there is so much that I really don’t understand, nor do I have answers. So many of us go through so many different shades of color in our lives that it is difficult to determine the answers of how to live our best life. For everyone it is different. What I do know for sure is that there are unlimited ways to perceive life and in this web of existence we have choices.
Sometimes, our choices seem limited and sometimes we are elated with the unlimited possibilities. What I have come to understand is that as we look at life and the many ways to experience ourselves it becomes critical to create a partnership with our minds.
I realized this mostly when my children were young. Depending on what was happening in their lives I always wanted to help make something better. I always tried to make the best of experiences and what we were given being there for them in every way I could. Sometimes, my efforts paid off and my children thrived and other times no matter what I did or how I framed the experience it was bound to work out less than I had anticipated. And when things didn’t work out, I tended to blame myself or something else. Eventually, I realized that neither of these two ways of looking at the world was helpful.
I had an inkling within me that what I was doing was not very helpful, but I did not know how to help this pattern. Until one day, I just stumbled on an advertisement for meditation. The people meditating looked happy. They looked peaceful and content. Something I wanted for myself but was ever so difficult to attain. So, I decided to try it out.
I’ll never forget the first time I attempted to meditate. I thought I was supposed to sit and just be… hoping that by staying quiet, sitting quietly, and through shear concentration I could train myself to make my thoughts leave and my mind. Boy was I wrong. I found the opposite to be true. My thoughts became louder, the ‘to do’ list became longer, and the unfinished things that raced in my psyche just went on and on and on… like a freight train that just keeps going and going and going. It was relentless and irritatingly frustrating to say the least.
I gave up many times. Many, many times. I just didn’t understand why people could speak about meditation and how it helped them so much. I felt like such a failure. It just made things worse for me. Then I enrolled in a meditation class. I walked into a studio and paid them cash that day hoping that if I did what they told me it would all just go away, and I would get the answers. And it helped, it didn’t cure my mindless activity, but it did help me begin to understand what was happening. I discovered how our thoughts are an endless culmination of three aspects of the mind. The negative, neutral, and positive mind. That we have a negative mind; useful in protection and alerting us to something that is wrong or a threat. We have a positive mind; useful in expanding a thought into possibilities instead of contrasting it into limitation and lastly, we have a neutral mind; helpful in deciphering the positive and the negative in relation to where we are now and what we choose our experience to become. As we develop ourselves through meditation, we become aware of our positive and negative mind eventually finding the neutrality of it all by becoming aware of what we have been doing. Then we realize we have choices on how we would like to shape our lives within our current states of awareness.
Then I learned about breath work. Practicing control of the breath through meditation. As I learned and practiced more, I found that breath work controlled our life force. The more I learned about breathing and how to control the different states of my breath the more I could control the different states of awareness within my mind. Thus, I could choose the expansiveness of my energy. Through breath awareness I could stimulate and enhance my energy thus adding more control to my thoughts, my energy, my reality.
Then I found mudras and mantras. I discovered that mantras are words or phrases that can be repeated aloud or to oneself with the rhythm of the breath, and mudras are the use of the hands to focus the brain. I was skeptical at first, and the more I practiced I was surprised at how much better I felt, the lasting effects of the practices and the simplicity of it all. I began to understand the helpfulness of my negative and positive minds and the innate ability of my neutral mind to intuitively focus. I was amazed at how a simple practice of strengthening the breath, using mudras to stimulate the brain, and mantras creating a rhythm of internal wisdom within my body could create lasting effects. I was hooked, to say the least.
Limiting beliefs haunting me for ages began to melt away, my energy returned, and my outlook on life improved. What did I learn? Life could change. I had some sort of control and that I could shape my reality. And I never needed to censor my thoughts, I needed to find the right practice for me.
If you are innately curious… I invite you to try a meditation class or practice at some point in your life. I just happen to teach a couple at Trillium Yoga in Antioch, periodically. Here are some dates… 5:45-6:45pm on 4/24, 5/8, & 5/22. OR try the online zoom meditation Wednesdays at lunch time… all you have to do is sign up at eventbrite here. I hope to see you soon!
