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mental balance & an intuitive heart

Ever since I wrote my last blog on gratitude it made me thinkโ€ฆhow much time do I spend in my head avoiding my heart?  I wondered what percentage of my day I spend in the part of my mind that remains negative in just about any situation appearing before me.  I also wondered with all the years of reiki yoga, and meditation training if I was allowing complete balance through all the parts of my mental mind and intuitive heart.   So, I simply sat down during one of my meditative practices and asked.  I didnโ€™t receive an answer right away.  Normally, I donโ€™t. Typically, answers come to me through experiences.  This time the universe seriously answered me through an experience I will never forgetโ€ฆ

I was traveling to Dallas with my daughter.  We had an early flight at Oโ€™Hare airport in Chicago getting us into Dallas with plenty of time to pick up our prepaid car rental and check in at our host hotel for her AAA hockey tournament.  She plays upper level hockey and often has to travel around the country.  We had planned everything in advance and all our arrangements were secured. 

That morning flight, the universe began answering my request to know if I had improved over the years with my practices.

It first began at airport security.  Things seemed unusually tense that morning.  Not as many airline agents were helping with bag checks which made check in a bit confusing and the airport seemed to be busier than normal with rushing people.  After sifting through the initial confusion, I began to realize that this was going to be an unusually intense morning.  We were able to find help in checking my daughterโ€™s rather large hockey bag and made it to security check point.  Shocked to find out that security officers were making people line up shoulder to shoulder and walk down a 20 foot long carpeted path reminding us to stay in line and next to the stranger you were paired with.  If we unknowingly walked more than 6 inches ahead of the person, we were next to, we were reprimanded to stay orderly.  I was separated from my daughter which gave me anxiety and feeling like we were immigrating to a foreign country.  As we walked down shoulder to shoulder the 20 foot gray carpeted path we were electronically scanned, recorded on video cameras, and sniffed by police dogs for anything that we could be illegally carrying.  The experience was enough to send someone with mild anxiety into a tail spin.  Next we were instructed to place all our belongings on the radar belts and walk quickly through the monster Xray scanners.  After the initial interrogating 20 foot walk the normal Xray scan seemed a bit heightening in anxiety.  Empathically, I feel everything and the amount of energy running through my body was insurmountable at times. 

My heart was pounding and my body ached with sorrow as I watched each person receive micro traumas as they passed through something that has become acceptable practice in our society.  Children were upset and parents did the best they could to manage a difficult situation. I ached with remorse with what seemed like an enormous dark cloud sweeping across the airport. 

Amid what was happening, I reminded myself of the practice.   Immediately I silently announced to myself, โ€œThank you God.โ€  And like I tell my students in yoga and meditation classesโ€ฆ โ€œKeep Up!โ€  And I did just thatโ€ฆ I kept upโ€ฆ I kept focused on my breath pattern and focused on all the sensations that were happening within me and all around me.  I became completely aware.   

I used the breathโ€ฆ

I inhaled deeply through my nose for a count of fourโ€ฆ1, 2, 3, 4.

I suspended my breath (held the breath) for a count of fourโ€ฆ 1, 2, 3, 4.

I slowly exhaled for a count of fourโ€ฆ 1, 2, 3, 4.

I suspended my breath out on the exhale for a count of fourโ€ฆ 1, 2, 3, 4. 

I repeated this process from the time I was separated from Nora all the way through the cattle shoots and being birthed out to our final airplane gate. 

As I kept the breath going, I also silently added the mantra, โ€œSa Ta Na Maโ€ to the 4 counts.

It is a kundalini yoga mantra effectively able to bring in transformational energy. 

This added depth and strength to the breath pattern able to carry me further into what was happening and allowing everything to pass through.  My mind remained focused, my body balanced, and my heart strong. I was one with the process.

Wave after wave of sensation passed through my heart and body.  Step after countless step I remained present.  Consciously and consistently, I remained separate from the mental sea of judgment, panic, and anxiety surrounding the airport and uniquely within the light.  The public faces of shame, discontent, insecurity, and panic were subtle and yet intense.  I desired only to be light and help as much as I could.  Whether it was a smile to the security officer, a thank you, assisting otherโ€™s with their bags, or gathering the numerous large plastic bins to help put them aside.   

I consistently leaned into the resistance and allowed everything to become one.  The mantra and breath pattern helped me walk through a difficult time untouched. 

As we continued our travelsโ€ฆ only running into another dilemma requiring more patience and more gratitude.  Apparently, when we arrived in Dallasโ€ฆ our prepaid car rental could not be honored for another 4 hours. 

Car and employee shortages as well as long wait times filled the airport.  Stress was high and waves of trauma coursed through the air. 

Wifi was spotty and communications were limited between people.  Anger and hostility were rampant.  I caught myself beginning to get swept away with the process. 

I grabbed onto my advice, after I realized the temptation before me to slip down the slippery slope of blame and desperation being created. 

Once again, I picked myself up with a, โ€œThank you Godโ€ and asked for guidance.  Instantly, I heard the mantra โ€œAap Sahaee Hoaโ€ fill my body.

In kundalini yoga, it is a mantra that penetrates the unknown without fear and brings in protection, mental stability, and balance. 

Wave after wave of fear and intimidation swept through my bodyโ€ฆ every emotional instability of every person, place, and thing came through meโ€ฆ I kept upโ€ฆ I sunk into the mantra and I processed the grief.  I paused, I breathed.  I tuned in.  I kept the mantra upโ€ฆ sending light and allowing.  Tears came over and through me as I watched the people calm and the energy shift and change all around me.  I breathed, I sensed, I remained present.  I felt more, sensed more, processed more.  Before long, the dark cloud that had consumed the area began to disappear, the desperation flattened, and community began to form.  People were striking up conversations, making personable connections, and taking the time to be together with complete strangers.  The air was cleared, and lightness began to prevail.

I was grateful.

Thank youโ€ฆ. Thank youโ€ฆthank you.

Some of my teachers would tell me to keep strong and donโ€™t allow these things to come near you.  And here is the problem with thatโ€ฆ now more than ever we need people who do what I do in the midst of chaos to hold the light so that the light can come through.  It only takes one being to make the initial shift and the others join in as consciously we bring more light to very dark situations.  It can be done.  It only becomes easier and easier as we all awaken to the clouds of darkness that have had a hold on us for so long and keeping us where we are unconsciously aware of our true powers.  We have the power to transmute darkness.  We have the capacity to make change softly and with intelligence and wisdom through a lineage of masters that have come before us.  It is possible.  We first need to awaken.   

Hence, the mantras, the breath work, and my reiki training are what made me capable of doing what I did.  My prayers were answered though the experiences I was having.  I became awakened once more.  I needed that to happen.  I needed to allow myself to go through that experience and continue to learn what is possible.  Light will penetrate the darkest of places just by its presence.  It does not need to fight or claim to be right.  It just is.  It is quiet and powerful all on its own.  It is wisdom. 

Light brings rest to the unrest, worthiness to the unworthy, and security to the insecure.  Light always prevails.

And 4 hours laterโ€ฆ we gratefully received the only car available and drove to our hotel. 

And I realized once again that the universe continues to amaze me.  Through awareness we continue to awaken to our true form and as we do we realize what is possible. I woke up that day, again.  As I continue to do every day, never knowing what will come but always having the balance of my mental mind and intuitive heart.  And even this is always a continual work in progress. 

Why do I share this story with you?  Because consciously and unconsciously we encounter these situations daily.  At work, in our communities, our homes and our families.  On larger or smaller scales.  It all adds up.  Micro trauma can build up and become a condition associated with post-traumatic stress disorders.  We need help, people need help, and support is available. 

This is why I teach.  Sharing Kundalini Yoga, Meditations & Mantras, Reiki, and Intuitive Readings & Energy Healing Sessions with one purpose; to awaken the power within you.  We can fish for others only for so longโ€ฆ the real miracle comes when you give others the tools and help them cultivate the knowledge already within. 

Reiki, meditation, mantras, and kundalini yoga are the tools and learning to use them to our advantage will only help us and society transform.  As we continue to walk through what is happening around us and within us these techniques add to our life and help us with our current professions.  It is as if we are learning the power of ourselves through the offerings and then able to transfer light into our own homes, careers, and communities. 

This month I invite you to join me in one of the following classes, events, or sessions.  As they are designed to teach how to become lighter and able to shift what may be happening within and all around you in your own unique way.  The teachings bring us purposeful true power.

Here are the April offeringsโ€ฆ. (click the pictures for more information and sign up links)

Keep Going… raise yourself higher and higher. Seek to raise your vibration constantly and consistently. Even when you seem to have reached your ceiling… press on. Raise yourself so high that ceilings no longer exist and your limitless existence is all there is & as you do… remember this… In order to be the light that shines brightly you need to recognize your own light from within.

As we move into spring time… allow your rebirth to launch you into a new phase of your limitless life. Allow the universe to expand and show you where to go next.

Here are some offerings to help with expansion:

Meditation groups to inspire your best life. 1 of 3 locations

Wauconda Monthly every 3rd Monday – 3/20, 4/17 & 5/22

Monthly every 3rd Monday in person

Antioch 3/27, 4/10, 4/24, 5/8 & 5/22 (Monthly on 2nd & 4th Monday)

Antioch Trillium Yoga Monthly 2nd & 4th Mondays

Lunch hour energy clearings and meditations to manifest your best self – Zoom on Tuesdays beginning April 4th 11:30am-12:30pm.

Reiki classes to harness intuition and channel life force energy. Bring more balance, integration, and consciousness into your daily life. Black Cat Yoga Libertyville

Reiki 1 April 18 & 19 – 6-9pm

Reiki 2 (must have reiki 1 certificate) April 29th

Kundalini Yoga for self growth and prosperity consciousness in all areas of life. 6 weeks of the prosperity consciousness series. Master your breath, move the body, manifest your highest self.

As always Individualized Energy Healing Sessions provide clear guidance and energy healing for rapid transformation & expansion along your journey. Remote or in person (Lake County Areas)

Appointments

Thoughts to Things, Light to Gray, It Matters

Take 5 minutes & Ponder thisโ€ฆ

Thoughts are things.ย  They have an energy.ย  A force upon them that can either be good for us or not so good for us.ย  Letโ€™s just say there are many shades of gray but there is only light.ย  There are many forms of light consciousness and they all become one formโ€ฆ light.ย  There are many forms of gray consciousness and they all become more gray.ย  Imagine thisโ€ฆ when you put light together as in layers upon itselfโ€ฆ it becomes more light.ย  It just shines and yet it shines ever so brighter.ย  Brighter and brighter and brighterโ€ฆ It just keeps becoming more of itself.ย  In the process of becoming more light it allows light to penetrate through every obstacle and anything perceived less than itself.ย  It keeps becoming moreโ€ฆ effortlessly moving into various places only penetrable by the light.ย  Only light can go where it has never been before.ย  It does not harm, and it does not force, it just is.ย  It doesnโ€™t make anything turn into itselfโ€ฆ it shines a light on the darkest of places so that everything can be seen.ย  It illuminates awareness and sight.ย  It shows us what was there all along.ย  That it has been there all alongโ€ฆjust waiting to penetrate deeper and deeper.ย  Light transforms darkness, gives us the opportunity to see and be seen, and then it is our choice to become more light or not.ย  To be or not to be.ย  That is the question, is it not?ย  Once we see, once we awaken to higher and higher forms of light we can never return to what was once there.ย  The darkness forever goes and no matter how hard we try to make the light go awayโ€ฆ it just grows.ย 

This is just as true for grayโ€ฆ gray matter collectively becomes more gray and then just becomes darkness.ย  It covers like a blanket of deep darkness as it slumbers us into a state of unconscious.ย  Thatโ€™s ok.ย  We can accept this, because sometimes we need the darkness.ย  We need to rest, recover, and blend in.ย  To just be in a state of being with nothing to be, do, or know.ย  We accept thisโ€ฆ and we continue.ย  We eventually remember, it’s only a blanket, temporarily covering our light. When we return to who we are, the blanket is removed. And when we know this we realize our world is full of these polarities. We can see the beauty in all of it, thatโ€™s when we truly awaken.ย  We see that there has always been something guiding us towards this balance.ย  This perfect dance that we do to truly encompass all that we are.ย  Itโ€™s only when we fear the darkness & fear the fear itself that we limit ourselves the experience of going through the darkness.ย  Within the dark there are lessons to learn, experiences to feel, and sensations to learn. And only through respect for the darkness can we return once again to more of what we would like to become.ย 

Many of us, most of us are some spectra of light.  There are times when it seems as though darkness has taken over forever, and this is just the illusion.  The illusion of polarity.  We seek to return to the balance and even pure light travels into dark places just as dark ones eventually seek to return to the light.  Itโ€™s all the same just polarity taking its course in many shades of gray.  Eventually becoming light. 

Quite honestly, I enjoy polarity.  I enjoy one spectrum versus the other and sometimes I need a little dark to understand who I truly amโ€ฆ pure light.  Eventually, this will no longer be so.  I will continue to walk the path of light and just continue to be more light without the dark.  Only with one purpose, to be the light for others to do the same and to see the consciousness within themselves that has always been there.  Just like Dorothy and the Wizard of Ozโ€ฆ the magic was always there, your ruby slippers were always the way home dear one, you just needed the journey to understand who you truly are; light. 

If you are looking for moreโ€ฆ to be more, experience, more and to become more of that which you believe yourself to be I invite you to experience light in many formsโ€ฆ all spectrums of lightโ€ฆ here are just a few waysโ€ฆ ongoing possibilities available to you and my honor to offer to you. 

With humbled blessingsโ€ฆ.

Sat Nam

Namaste

Please & Thank you,

Amen.

Jennifer     

Merging with Consciousness

10 minutes to inspire your intuitive abilities… this is an excerpt from the ‘Becoming Intuitive’ program accessible as a ‘study on your own’ with 1:1 personal support from me. Enjoy the gift…

Many of us just want to know… “How do we become conscious and intuitive in every moment?”

Only in the awakening, can we become the consciousness that resides intuitively within us. 

As we become conscious and intuitive in nature, we recognize that our true power comes from the sensations of the body, which naturally tunes us into this knowing.  This is the self-connected internal knowing recognized as the triad of consciousness spoken about earlier.  It is not necessary to have all our energy systems in our body perfectly aligned nor must we be well versed in metaphysical concepts.  Rather it is more helpful to NOT have any type of metaphysical or spiritual background.   When we have studied and become well versed in metaphysical, religious, or spiritual concepts we run the risk of โ€˜knowing it allโ€™.   We run the risk of already knowing everything and having all the answers.  We stop believing.  This is the mind keeping us limited.  This work is not for the mind.  The minute we โ€˜know it allโ€™ we lose our connection with consciousness.  In this work we know nothing with the mind and the sensations of our body become the keys to our release. 

Through sensation we can resolve and release that which is unknown to us, which keeps us where we are.  In essence the key is to sense that things are already โ€˜taken care ofโ€™ because we are tuned into and tapped into something greater than us.  Even if we do not know what that is or believe that there is something greater, we still receive help and we still receive our shift in consciousness.  Conscious intuition is without the mind.  It is guidance felt through the heart and opening us to an expansion unidentified by form.  It surprises us with humble confirmation that as we follow our โ€˜knowingโ€™ we come across answers to dilemmas that are beyond our rational mind. 

For example, some very important information came to me for over a month about โ€˜narcissisticโ€™ personality traits.  I did not know why I was receiving this information, nor did I understand the connections at first.  I simply found myself very aware that I kept receiving this information from various sources.  Simultaneously, there was a certain person in my life I felt was not completely genuine and I understood I did not need to judge.  Instead, I remained present with an open heart.  Later, I began to realize, before a โ€˜partnershipโ€™ advanced with this person, that I was dealing with a narcissist personality. Throughout this experience, I sat with myself in the not knowing of what was unfolding before me, and allowed the experience to happen.  There were many instances that felt confusing during our interactions.  Why was it that in some situations this person felt life affirming and in other situations it felt consuming and depleting?  Why was it that my ears heard what they were saying but the energy behind their words was of a different intention?  I continued to sit with myself, breathe through these confusing moments of fear, and allowed my insecurities and feelings of instability to rise up to the surface of my being.  I never asserted myself from a place of needing to be right no matter how I felt.  I remained neutral and unreactive.  I waited and sensed within what was next before going forward. Through simply confirming the conscious intuitive knowing from within and following through with โ€˜NOโ€™ action I received answers and found the solutions to my dilemma. 

I affirmed โ€˜no actionโ€™ by not going further with a partnership.  What this person was promising verbally was not truthful and conscious intuition was clearly guiding me to walk away; no matter what resistance I encountered.  My resistance was the clearing that needed to happen of a learned belief stored away in my past and no longer serving my world today.  My heart felt contracted and tight.  My guides showed me nothing every time I asked for them to show me the next steps to take.  I received nothing and therefore was to do nothing.  Believe meโ€ฆthis was a true test of my ability to allow the embodied 6th sense to reveal the reality of the situation. This โ€˜spiritually enlightened personโ€™ was not to be trusted.  Things are not always what they appear to be.  I later learned that if I had gone forward with a partnership there would have been much deception and financial strain.  Our intuition knows the truth behind all actions and senses this through the heart of consciousness.  It is sometimes very quiet, and it is always there in truth.

Ultimately, we may begin to understand our outer experiences are a representation of our subconscious beliefs. When we finally realize and wake up to our awareness, we begin to embrace a powerful part of ourselves.  As we practice, the illusion of searching falls away.  We are no longer unconsciously searching to confirm our old beliefs and conform to the outside.  In essence we are being where we are with our truest intentions because we are more in line with our authentic self.  We are the being.  It is in here that we embrace our soulโ€™s purpose. 

The person who is sweeping streets may be more consciously alive and in tune with their purpose than the person who is working the stock market and making millions of dollars.  It all depends on where we are and if we are in alignment with our truth.  Do we need confirmation and conformity or can we exist in our current relationships with our own awakened connection?

When my child throws a tantrum on the floor of the grocery store is my love for them dependent on their behavior or does it always exist.  Am I able to hold myself in that love and come from a place of consciousness to help them or am I troubled and caught up in the situation trying to control their behaviors?  We do this in relationships.  When there is a discussion between two people.  Can we be in our conscious knowing that what is happening within us has nothing to do with the other person but rather something of our own that is bubbling up to be revealed.  If we remain conscious, we connect in moments of fear and love without judgment and with invested interest that we are working towards a greater cause.  The light of our consciousness never fails.  It does not control, and it does not judge.  It holds no grudges, nor does it resent and place itself in a form of self-defense.  It shines in complete acceptance of itself and the world around.

A flower that grows in the forest does not dwell on the idea that it may be the only flower for miles in a sea of trees and tall grasses.  It grows where it is in a state of unconditioned reverence for its existence where it is.  We are the experience.  Our state of being determines nothing and everything at the same time.  Our desire for consciousness determines nothing.  When we are being, we realize that all that is happening has nothing to do and no way to control.  It just is. 

Here is your practice for the dayโ€ฆ

With every situation, which arises, and every condition that happensโ€ฆbe.  Just be.  Offer no advice or try to determine the best outcome to take.  Just allow things to unfold on their own with a state of conscious peace.  If a business partner is unraveling frustration over a situation and is looking for approval from you to make a decision to go in a direction that is unclearโ€ฆthen just pause. 

Pauseโ€ฆbreatheโ€ฆexcuse yourselfโ€ฆand take a walk.  This is possible.  In a moment that one must make a decision because it is a life-threatening situation we need to act without hesitation, for sure.  This is NOT what I am referring to.  In these cases, our survivor instincts kick in and we are to follow through for sure.  I am speaking of the idea that we do not need to make decisions when someone else is pressuring us to do so because of their perceived time frame.  We must sense our way and feel what is happening within us.  Connect in our triad of super consciousness and become our purpose in every moment.  Ask yourself, โ€œAm I living my purpose in this moment?  How can I be in this moment and be aligned with my highest purpose? How do I remain aligned right now?  How do I become more in tune with the true purpose in my life? Who am I in this moment? Who am I truly? Who am I?โ€ 

One may continue to wonder, โ€œWhy we ask so many questions directed at the self and our own actions?โ€  Well, the only thing we have control over in our life is ourselves.  Even our own self-perceived control is a mystery.  When we come to this level of consciousness, we come to the realization we control nothing and the only power we have is in a triad with all that is.  We are connecting and being in every moment.  No matter what.  When we pause to ask ourselves the questions, we also find that our heartbeat slows down, our vision opens up, our ears keenly become aware of our surroundings and our digestion rests where we are.  We become one with timelessness and understand that the perception of urgency is not based on anything but human creation.  That in the realm of space and time there really is no space and time.  It is here that we have access to all possibility.  It is in this moment that the connections are happening all around us and our new reality lines up. 

When we realize there is a human unconsciousness that is always trying to figure things out, we are in that state, always.  We never allow for miracles, and we never allow for any other possibilities because we are energetically sending out the message to the universe that โ€˜weโ€™ve got this all figured out alreadyโ€™ and โ€˜we donโ€™t need the helpโ€™.  Thus, we have intentionally cut off the supply of miracles, which now has no room to show up.  When we pause and respond in a new way of being that is heart centered, we detach from the collective unconscious.  In that detachment we automatically begin to realign with something greater, conscious, and intuitive. 

Imagine unplugging from the collective unconscious of the business entity on purpose.  We unplug ourselves so that we can lead in a higher way.  When we unplug, we are allowing ourselves to fly above situations and see from the birdโ€™s eye view.  If we are so attached to the collective unconscious of that entity we can never actually see from outside the picture.  We are always inside the framework of what we perceive to be happening and thus remain in the box full of ideas that are only available where we are.  When we unplug and allow ourselves to breathe, walk, tune in, and separate in a way that connects us to our intuitive consciousness, we are tuning into something bigger than all of us.  We are aligned with consciousness that has the highest and best interest for everyone and everything and then we allow for the highest and best possible outcome to be available to us.  We may not understand โ€˜howโ€™ or know โ€˜whyโ€™, at first.  But this is the process of opening and becoming reconnected.  Remember, the journey always unfolds exactly as it is supposed to.  As we reconnect to ourselves, we reconnect to allowing flow back into our live.  We are guided and directed.  We lead others as we are led in a new way.  We are that which we seek, as we trust, the path will unfold.  Itโ€™s in the attempt to find, that we keep searching.  When we cease from searching, we finally realize we were already there. 

Today.  Our mission is to continue to merge with consciousness.  Walk amongst nature.  Sit with a flower.  Be with the Earth.  Feel the sensations of consciousness all around.  In the wind, the trees, the grass, the flowers, the smells, etc.  Be with the aliveness all around.  It is in the fish within the fishbowl, the dog near you, and the plant by your bedside table.  It is the aliveness that is the living consciousness in everything.  If you can take some time to sit with a treeโ€ฆclose your eyes and imagine yourself merging with her.  Be in the treeโ€ฆimagine yourself being the tree trunk and expanding your arms up to the sun and your legs running deep into the Earth.  Be.  Be the grass.  Be a blade of grassโ€ฆ reaching high to the sky and rooted within the dirt below.  Wave with the wind.  Feel the expansion.  The aliveness of nature is the aliveness of consciousness.  It is all around us. 

Bring nature into your home.  Have potted plants in the office to remind you of who you are.  Find rocks to place around, these are the elements of this great universe, and decorate the computer screen with mountains, and streams, and organic materials.  Be connected to all that is and allow reminders all around the environment.  This fosters connection to the world within and subtly fosters the knowing that everything that is in this world is not of this world.  You are not of this world and certainly we all will be going to another place when we are gone.  Ask yourself, โ€œWhat is my purpose?  Who am I meant to be and am I becoming what I am?  What is this?  Who am I?  How do I know this?โ€  In asking these questionsโ€ฆdonโ€™t wait for answers just sense the aliveness within and around you.  Continue to ask, โ€˜Do posing these questions arise any unsatisfied emotions? In posing these questions do I feel a shift in how I relate to others?  Has my perception as to what is important and non-important changed?  In asking these questions do I feel any different about life?  Am I able to connect with the world around me in a new light?โ€™ 

In posing these fundamental questions of existence we are in essence acknowledging the action in non-action.  This is how conscious intuition can help us be more productive than the mind alone.  When we merge with consciousness we are disconnecting from the collective unconscious, and we then can lead guide and direct from a far greater evolutionary position than anyone has ever been able to do before. 

People begin to look at us differently because they can feel a shift.  Those that are beginning waking up to their own consciousness may be very inquisitive.  They may ask what we have been doing and how come we look so much better.  We may not notice the shifts in ourselves, but they will.  Some that are fear based will wonder if we are ok and if we need to talk to someone about what is going on in our life.  Just smile and thank them for their concern and assure them you have never felt clearer about your life and the purpose of your work.  Most people will be curious of your newfound strength and peace.  Your openness to creativity will produce inspired answers to problems that came from something outside of the unconsciousness that was residing in the current institution that you work.  Your contributions will be conscious and different.  Consciousness is in everyone and everything and when it begins to wake up it spreads easily and fast as if you turned a light on in a room.  Remember, you are not shifting anyone, and it is not your job to preach what they should do.  Your path is your own and theirs is their path.  We spread the inspiration and intuitive consciousness by being this ourselves and connecting at heart-to-heart levels with everyone around us no matter what.  We accept everyone for who they are, and we attempt to change no one.  This is truly conscious and heart full living.  This is living without ego and without the form-based perception that most of humanity is attached to.  We are formless.  When we leave the Earth, we do not take our bodies with us.  The aliveness is no longer in the body that we left but that does not mean we are not alive. 

Today, just for now.  Be.  Merge with your consciousness by purposefully being in nature to merge with nature and practice in the most complex situations that may emerge in relationships throughout your day.  Practice many of the techniques we have learned the past 3 weeks.  Keep merging with your life as an intuitive tapped in and tuned into โ€˜beingโ€™.  IN-Joy life. In-Joy-Ing life is the being of joy.  So, In-joy today. 

When complex situations emergeโ€ฆ take care of yourselfโ€ฆtake a breath, excuse yourself, walk, give yourself space and a moment to allow yourself to merge again with your spirit.  Then come back without an answer.  There is no need to force, and everyone has the right to moments.  It is one of the greatest gifts to give our self and our emergence into a conscious life. 

Today is about merging.  Tomorrow we will practice how to be one with this newfound awareness and we will practice opening to more enlightened ways of listening and tuning into our connection. 

Todayโ€™s Mantra

Just for now, in this now moment, I merge with consciousness. 

Just for now, in this now moment, I merge with consciousness.

Just for now, in this now moment, I merge with consciousness.


What is Reiki?

Reiki is a Japanese form of healing for stress reduction & relaxation bringing balance and healing to the entire human energy system in all areas of life.  Mental, Emotional, Physical, & Spiritual issues are all addressed and helped with a Reiki practice.  It is complete health and healing to the body, mind, and soul. 

  • Reiki is for physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual imbalances. 
  • Reiki facilitates self-healing, the healing of your business, your life work, & the healing of your family.
  • Reiki helps our careers, families, relationships, prosperity. 
  • Reiki is empowering. It increases the energy of our healing potential and symbiotically helps the people, places, and things that surround us. 

How it works:  To perform Reiki, you must be attuned by a master to the higher frequencies of the energy.

There are three levels to Reiki.  Each Level must be completed in sequential order.  Reiki 1, 2, and 3.

Reiki 1 is being offered 2/10 & 2/11 in Wauconda, contact me to sign up

Reiki 1 is also being offered 2/14 & 2/15 in Libertyville, go to this link to sign up

IntuitLove:ย  Live unconditionally, Love fully, Let go of it all

Within our hearts we experience a universal love vibration.ย  Here is where we open to feelings of the awareness of a consciousness which supersedes anything we may experience in our daily interactions.ย  There are no lower emotions attached to the heart coming from a dysfunctional solar plexus, low naval, or sacrum area.ย  We have balanced and engaged our lower three chakras in a way that brings complete understanding of who we are and what we are here to experience within our lives.ย  We love ourselves completely which allows us to love others just the same.ย  We place no expectations on others.ย  We do not react to the world around us.ย  Rather we respond in a loving manner comprehending the greater good in all situations.ย  Loving and being loved is a transcendental state of higher awareness opening us to the cosmic law of prosperity.ย  The more we give; the more we receive.ย  The more we love the divine within ourselves; the more we love the divine within others.ย  The more we are able to open to the divine of all.ย  The more the divine is able to show up in ways that seem miraculous to our every day existence.ย  This is the magic of light consciousness, of pure bliss, and oneness with your Creator.ย 

Our hearts, at the center of our chests, feel everything.  We are sensations.  When we tune into this love force, we can experience it all.  Low and high vibrations.  As we learn to discern and shed the lower emotions that tend to control and interpret life, we learn to open to the miraculous which has no defined existence and allows for the transcendence of everything in our lives.  We learn to love ourselves, opening to true love for all.  We can finally see, feel, and sense what it means to love truly.  This love is unattached to any person, place, or thing.  We share with no strings attached. We feel balanced, clear, and open to both giving and receiving. 

Within the lower chakras, if not resolved, is where life can feel messy, confusing, constricted, and unfair.  We tend to place blame on the outside world ignorant of the realization that these are reflections of what we must resolve within.  This does not mean we stay where we are and become the victim or martyr of the world around us.  Love brings us to a new state of awareness allowing us to speak with clarity, claim our power, and shift our lives into a new state of being fully aligned with our desires. 

We realize that this life is filled with the opportunities to experience higher awareness in every person, place or thing.  As we experience the higher vibrations of love consciousness, we draw more of these experiences to us and we begin to fill our lives with that which we desire and less of which we are willing to endure through obligations. 

The old ways of insecurity, distrust, scarcity, isolation, abandonment, rigidity, jealousy, resentment, frustration, and judgement slowly erupt until we just canโ€™t take it anymore.  We find it unbearable to live this way and we finally allow ourselves to become more.  We shed the struggle of ourselves, our families, and our societies and we realize there is so much more to experience. 

Many of our societies are built around these lower dysfunctional emotions.  It is rampant.  It is engaged within almost every rule, every judgement, every societal decision based on the idea we must keep law and order otherwise we will have a very unsafe and chaotic world full of crime, disease, and scarcity. 

When we transcend the lower emotions within ourselves and teach others to do the same, we finally return to the heart.  We naturally inspire good, live fully, and unconditionally share with the world.  If everyone was able to forgive and release the lower emotions within themselves, they would begin to see a completely new world unfold before them. 

It only begins with one, and then as the second person joins them the miraculous journey of prosperity and bliss for the community unfolds before them. 

With an open heart, we can bring new meaning to our lives, live unconditionally, and love prosperously. 

Mastering the lower realms and understanding the ability to transcend it all can take lifetimes to accomplish.  Or it can miraculously happen today.  Itโ€™s all up to us to desire to believe there is another way and then to seek this new way.  We are in a constant state of awareness pressing forward to ascend it all.  Sometimes it may feel contracted and gray and other times the expansion cannot be contained.  It is a symbiotic process always unfolding before us.  Itโ€™s the great meaning of Creatorโ€ฆ to create, to destroy, and to create again. 

Through acceptance, surrender, and the desire for more we begin to understand the importance of Be โ€“ ing, see โ€“ ing, and sense โ€“ ing.  We see through all the veils and the illusions within our own lives fall aways.  We embrace compassion, detachment, and the gift of our life path.

We come fully into Intuitive Love.

It is truly a state of surrender to a higher love with no containers or boundaries.  Even our imaginations cease to comprehend how vast and strong the ocean of awareness can be as we deeply unveil the endless vastness of an all providing universe of limitless prosperity and manifestations present everywhere. 

Then we know we have found our true calling; to live unconditionally, to love fully, and let go of it all. 

To Become IntuitLove.


If you are looking to experience more love and manifest a life of living through the heart, I encourage you to allow yourself to continue to learn and seek more.

Educate yourself and never stop learning. 

Here are some opportunities this week and weeks ahead that may unite this love affair within yourselfโ€ฆ


Classes

Thursdays – Kundalini Yoga โ€“ tune in this week to the heart chakraโ€ฆ our all-knowing intuitive guidance system.ย  See links for location information.

Reiki I in February ย โ€“ An ancient and effective eastern healing practice powerful enough to help heal practically any issue.ย  Take the time to learn in February.ย  Link here.


Programs

Sandwich Connection – Live your highest potential through your purposefully aligned joy and bliss.

Let goโ€ฆ and finally live through the heart.ย  Love solves everything unsolvable. Inquire with Jennifer today.

Becoming Intuitive โ€“ Engage in this online journey and learn to sense, feel, and know how to live intuitively.ย  How to transform your everyday life to intuitive living.ย  Inquire with Jennifer and contact her today.ย 


Private Sessions ย 

1:1 Energy Healing and Manifestation Sessions are always available. ย Inquire here.ย 

Sometimes we have to say goodbyeโ€ฆ

I have a friend who never says goodbye to his adult children. They always end their visits with a โ€˜see you soon!โ€™ When I heard this, I was immediately inspired. โ€˜What a great conceptโ€™, I thought. They have such a relationship that ending their departure is that much easier if they just begin to imagine their next visit together through, โ€˜see you soonโ€™. This got me thinkingโ€ฆ

When we begin to imagine ourselves differently and what we want to create in our lives we begin to energetically move towards our dream. No matter what. The universe will never deny our requests. It only seeks to be in alignment with us. And we have to be in alignment with what we wish to create.

Simply said, this father and daughter have created a way to continue their relationship and energetically create their next visit by purely ending their visits with, โ€˜see you soonโ€™. They both are in alignment with what they want and as such, their next visit together is already being created. Their cords keep running back and forth from each other and they consciously and subconsciously are creating even though they may be miles apart.

It got me thinking furtherโ€ฆ how many of us pay attention to this small and yet profoundly simple process? How many of us know how powerful the word is and how powerful our thought processes are? How many of us spend that much time thinking about this. And then I thought, not many of us do think about this, and yet again I realized, thatโ€™s why I do think about these things.

Itโ€™s what I do. I always look at energy and decide how we are connecting or not connecting to what we want or what we think we need. How are we in alignment with what we want and what is happening on a day to day basis to get us there? Iโ€™m always pondering, how are my actions lining up with my goals and aspirations and what might I be doing or not doing to line up with what I believe I want?

Simply put, these two people know that it is hard to say goodbye, and they have agreed to keep their relationship connected while they are apart by three simple words, โ€˜see you soonโ€™. Thus, they have created an energetic bond that keeps them in alignment with each other to create their next reunion. They even are energetically supporting and inspiring each other just through their common goal they both freely unite upon. Itโ€™s amazing how a simple agreement in alignment with both of their highest vibrations just never fails.

I know, I knowโ€ฆ Iโ€™m thinking too much about this. But am I? Really, am I? Think about itโ€ฆ if we could all have these types of relationships where we could freely have conscious commitments with each other understanding our energy and our words are that powerfulโ€ฆ could you imagine how empowered we would be? Could you possibly imagine how much powerful we would feel if we could be alignment with what we truly wanted all the time? In addition, if we had the tools and resources to support this? In essence we could be powerfully supported and lead guided and directed in all of our actions if we could just be alignment with what we truly wanted.

Simply, father and daughter, know they canโ€™t be together all the time but know they donโ€™t want to be apart either. So they have consciously decided to keep their relationship going energetically until their cords can pull them closer again physically.

Now how many of us know that we do this on a daily basis even with things that we donโ€™t want? This brings me to my next thoughtโ€ฆ how many of us are unconsciously drawing to us what we donโ€™t want until we canโ€™t take it anymore and have to wake up to what we keep doing to ourselves?

I did that for a really loooooooong time and I still find myself doing that from time to time. These are called life lessons in many traditions. And I also like to see them as energy.

Maybe entertain the possibility that we all have lessons to learn but do we need to keep learning them from a lesser way through the lower vibrations of shame, resentment, defeat, struggle, and survival? Many of us keep repeating the same habits because we are caught in these energies of thought forms or cords that keep us bound to the difficult way of doing things. But why do we do this to ourselves?

Any number of reasons whyโ€ฆ maybe we learned how to struggle or survive as a victim or martyr from our parents. Maybe we were taught to do this the hard way through authority figures and our communities. Maybe it was our religious beliefs or the rules and regulations that were put on us through our institutions. Maybe.

And if we donโ€™t at least look at why we keep doing these things and feeling this way, we end up remaining where we are repeating the same scenarios in our life until we just either have to awaken or we slowly die trying. I prefer the awakening process.

Which always leads me to my next thoughtโ€ฆ how do I do this? How do I create something new without holding onto the old that is not working anymore? Well, to me, we just simply have to say, โ€˜goodbyeโ€™. Permanently. We have to believe we deserve the miracle of shifting the energy, that we do not need to suffer anymore, and we just have to allow the old ways to die. Some of us are really good at saying goodbye to old ways and some of us take a little more time. Itโ€™s just who we are. Some of us like to say โ€˜see you soonโ€™ even though we should be saying โ€˜goodbyeโ€™ because we donโ€™t know how to just let go, permanently.

And, thatโ€™s what I do. I like to permanently say โ€˜goodbyeโ€™ to things that no longer help me thrive and โ€˜see you soonโ€™ to those that do. Which takes me to the next thoughtโ€ฆ how do we discern what to let go and what to hang on?

We just let go of everythingโ€ฆ we become untethered and hold no expectation to something the way we think it should be and instead allow for life to unfold before us. Meaning we accept we control nothing and we open. In that unfolding we become the gems that have been waiting to shine.

But, like saying โ€˜goodbyeโ€™, we sometimes just donโ€™t like this. We donโ€™t like things to be different and we donโ€™t like how it feels to shed the control and move into something new. There may be all sorts of reasons for thisโ€ฆ old patterns and behaviors that are no longer working but we donโ€™t know how move on and create new ones. These are the cords I spoke about earlier. These are the cords that are not serving us that we have to permanently release and resolve so they donโ€™t keep showing up in new relationships that are just a repeat of the old patterns. How do we know this is happening? Well, itโ€™s because we keep feeling the same no matter what we do to improve our livesโ€ฆ itโ€™s just not working.

Itโ€™s like we are unconsciously saying, โ€˜see you soonโ€™ to a bully that keeps showing up to traumatize us because we are attached to fear and lower forms of thinking. Weโ€™re not doing this on purposeโ€ฆ itโ€™s just something we donโ€™t really address on a daily basis and it is certainly not a part of anyoneโ€™s day to day dinner conversations. Or at least this is true for most people.

So what do I do when I come up with patterns that donโ€™t serve me and I keep stumbling? I sit with it, I feel it in the body, I see what the story is that I have created around it, and I permanently say โ€˜goodbyeโ€™. I energetically forgive and release it and make sure it is dissolved and resolved.

This is self care of the highest form of love that says โ€˜goodbyeโ€™ to what is not serving our highest purpose and potential so we can achieve our own self mastery. Then we can fully show up for others and be there in a way that helps us all. Then we are no longer living off the dramas and the addictions of ourselves and others and we are fully showing up. This allows our lights to shine and we can become more, give more freely, and have more to refill and pass along to others.

And if your not sure how to say โ€˜goodbyeโ€™ or when to say โ€˜see you laterโ€™ and how to know the differenceโ€ฆ thatโ€™s what I do. I coach you on how to discern the difference. Then on how to make your life show up differently in all areas.

From relationships to family, career to prosperity, health to spirit.

So next time your wondering โ€˜what is happening?โ€™, โ€˜why do I keep doing this?โ€™, or โ€˜how can I do this differently?โ€™, think about either a simple one to one session or an entire coaching experience.

I do both.

And next time you are deciding between โ€˜see you soonโ€™ and โ€˜goodbyeโ€™ reflect on your goals and intentions and tune into the power of your words and actions. You just might simply be able to discern and truly know for yourself what serves your highest self. And then you can consciously choose when to say โ€˜see you soonโ€™ and when to permanently say โ€˜goodbyeโ€™.

I hope you enjoyed this blogโ€ฆ here are some up-coming events and links to my schedule and appointments.

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In the Shadows is Where the Light Shines

We are now in the point of light consciousness where it is pivotal to go within.  If you are striving towards something you want to bring into your life or wondering how to shift your current state of awarenessโ€ฆ NOW is a pivotal time to be focused on just that. 

As we transition from the winter solsticeโ€ฆ going from the darkest point of the year, coming into a new moon (the darkest sky of the month), and beginning the sacred wise and transformative season of miracles.  Thus, it is imperative we decide what we want to bring into our lives.  Reading this means you are full of awareness.  Thus, it is time to begin the planning and manifesting of your next transformation into spring.

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We have an enormous opportunity for change in a positive and light filled direction if we can recognize our ability to shift.  We are doing it, consciously & unconsciously all the time.  Unfortunately, most of us are reacting to what is showing up around us instead of going within, shifting from the inside and then the world bends and shifts to our conscious, heart filled, integral desires. 

This requires commitment to a practice, conscious understanding we are connected to something bigger than us, and confidently pursuing in the direction of our heartfelt dreamsโ€ฆno matter what.  โ€˜No matter whatโ€™ is where the work for us comes in.  We must be willing to shift.  We must be willing to resolve and release for all past karma we have created in order to welcome in our desired destiny.  Itโ€™s only requirement is the contemplative desire, clear vision, conscious commitment, and connected knowing. Then we create our world, no matter what comes up for us. 

In the shadows is where the light shines.

In the shadows of all are doubts, angst, procrastination, hurts, wrongs, failures, and short comings is where the diamonds emerge. 

When we gloss over, accept the breadcrumbs as โ€˜good enoughโ€™, or can not even imagine how to shift we are faced with an overbearing OPPORTUNITY.  This is the golden moment our soul is calling for us to go deeper.  NOT TO GIVE UP. 

Digging up the rocks and tilling the fields can be hard work if we do it alone.  When we learn of a process that makes it obtainable to grow crops an easier wayโ€ฆ we become the way. 

Our internal seeds know what needs to be done.  Our external world may seem limited.  And that is exactly the illusion we are faced with dismantling.

We all have a soul purpose and a spiritโ€™s joy.  Letโ€™s uncover this together.

We all have the light that shines from within illuminating the darkest of times.  Letโ€™s unify with the all-encompassing sun.

We all have the eye of truth living within us.  Letโ€™s discover the lasting relationship with this internal wisdom.

I invite humanity to rediscover the version of light that is truly illuminating right now.  Not the version we are told exists and only the version that is experienced and sensed and known by the very experiences of awakening to the eternal powers lay dormant in us all.

Meaning, there is a version of our reality that is already healthy, spiritually connected, prosperous, illuminated, unified, and one. 

We can heal and create career visions and dreams.  We can heal and create financial prosperity and illuminated abundance.  We can heal and create healthy body and mind.  We can heal and create spiritual connection and oneness.  We can heal and create outstanding relationships. We can heal and create unified families. We can heal and create a personal reconciliation with thyself. 

It is all possible.  It all happens.  It all will shift in this now moment.  If we begin now. 

I encourage you to allow shifts to happen, allow yourself to create new possibilities, and allow oneness to seep into your blood stream. 

Here are some tips I use to create my life. 

Every year I rewrite my mission statement.  My life mission statement envisions my illuminated self in alignment with my highest purpose and potential.  This encompasses all aspects of my life from career and purpose to family and relationships, to health and spirit.

I then redesign my long-term goals in succinct ways and supported by monthly markers that will produce attainment of my goals. 

Daily, I create short attainable actions steps to achieve my monthly markers.

Gratitude and recognition of the universe is working for me is a part of this practice.

I consistently work to heal, resolve, and transcend the parts of me that are not aligning with my purpose.

I have a daily ritual of mediation and connection. I speak with my guides daily and receive my next steps towards working with the highest possibility for myself and all those surrounding me. 

I am resolved to always function from the heart with the highest integrity for myself and everyone around me.  It requires work but the rewards and reduction in karmic relations keeping me from obtaining and becoming lighter are electric. 

It takes work, strategy, commitment, confidence, and complete clarity.

I encourage you to create your own and include rituals in the processโ€ฆ of this unfolding. 

If you need help and want to know more about a process that could work, my Sandwich Connection program is available. 

Sandwich Heartmind Groups will be forming in the beginning of the year for current and past participants.  These will help to further along our practice and create the miracles we are seeking. 

Access information hereโ€ฆ  or contact me directly by text or call.

As for now, recognize we all have a clean canvas with the ability to create the life of our design.  Sometimes, we just need a little help from our friends. 

Have a beautiful and light filled entrance into all the light you can handle.

Bring in opportunities to Transcend Limitations in all aspects of life.   

Between now and April light is pouring in.  Harness the opportunity. 

With love & all the light you can handle.

Namaste,

Sat Nam,

Blessings & Miracles,

Jennifer Lauren

Joti Tajdeep Kaur

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Iโ€™ll never forget when I began my healing journey. I felt so alone for all those years. Like I was floating on this deserted island waiting for someone to recognize what was happening and begin to see things from my perspective. I had so many questions. โ€œWhy is it Iโ€™m the only one who believes there is another way?โ€ โ€œWhy do I feel like everyone is asleep and I am the crazy one who sees what is really going on?โ€ โ€œAm I crazy? Or is everyone else just numb?โ€

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I began to think we were living in a world of institutionalized slavery. One person after another was being programmed into believing healing only happened through medicine and that the ceilings that were available to them was all we could expect and all that we deserved. I speak about this repeatedly in my book, โ€œTranscending Limitationsโ€ but more importantly breaking through a matrix of codependent societal behaviors was the secret to my success.

If you are wondering how to shift your life and what to do next at your current crossroads or if you know someone who is standing at the doorway of choices wondering what to do next perhaps contemplate this point of reference when you come to the end of the road you have always known and traveled upon.

Sometimes failure and falling down again can be exactly what we need to live our greatest lifeโ€ฆ here is something that may help inspire you or someone you know…


Learning to flyโ€ฆ

You must become completely related to what you want in your life.

You must feel the sensations and the knowing’s that live in your heart.ย 

Many of us walk around as if the weight of the world is on our shoulders.  Unconsciously stuck in a pattern or repertoire of the things that we donโ€™t want. 

How do we become something other than what is happening all around us.  Let go of what you know. Let go of the mind and only live through the heart.

We can not create what we want by referencing what is currently happening. 

We must intuitively live.

We must keenly taste.

We must passionately feel.

Let the light shine through.  No matter what.

You might have the weight of two worlds on your shouldersโ€ฆ. Get related to itโ€ฆ let it crack youโ€ฆ let it open you to desperation.ย  Let yourself fall into the abyss of imperfection.ย  Then watchโ€ฆ just beโ€ฆ stay in the naad of what is happening.ย  Set yourself feel.

Feel it all.  The doubts, the fears, the angst, the heartache, the yuck, the imperfection, the everything. 

Its darknessโ€ฆ and in the darknessโ€ฆ only light can shine. 

In the darknessโ€ฆ only light prevails.ย 

We must be nothing like we were in the past.ย  Awareness never allows anything to stay and always allows change to happen.ย  No matter what.

Awareness that this is happening combined with allowing ourselves to fall and feel again breaks us open to freedom. 

No matter what.

What are you afraid of?

What is aching within your heart?

What do you want and why is it not showing up?  Why are you stuckโ€ฆ. Why are you cagedโ€ฆ why do you remain where you are? 

Its right there inside you. Put your attention on itโ€ฆ. Feel itโ€ฆ get related to itโ€ฆ and let it scream.  Let it tantrum. Let it feel. Let it feed your body with all the things you are afraid of.  Let yourself die. 

When you allow your heart to breakโ€ฆ when you allow it to fall into the shadowโ€ฆ something brilliant is allowed to happenโ€ฆ it becomes rebornโ€ฆ AGAIN.

It falls apartโ€ฆ it breaksโ€ฆ it scattersโ€ฆ it hurtsโ€ฆ. Oh, and it hurts so much.  It longs for things to be different.  And that is beautiful. 

We want thatโ€ฆ we want to feel it all.

When we truly feel we finally see the charismatic ache within the heart with gentle eyes smiling at you to just let go.

Then we get to pick up the pieces again.  And put it back together better than anything we could have ever expected it to be with our minds.  And only fully longed for and felt for with our hearts. 

Its greater, than anything you can ever even imagine.  It lives through the heart.  Only in the heart. 

But when there is a cocoon around the heart protecting itโ€ฆ we must break it open and break it freeโ€ฆ again. 

We need to be more connected, more related, and more in love than ever beforeโ€ฆ that is what the sadness is calling us to do.  Be more, let it out, feel it all.  Just be intuit.   

Life is full of death.

Birth is full of dying.

Light is full of dark.

We go one direction, and then we bounce back and go the other direction. 

We just are. 

And we know that we must feel, we must sense, and then we knowโ€ฆ what glorious things may come. 

But when we hesitate, when we donโ€™t just jump in, we lose our connection to all that is.  We miss itโ€ฆ it just passes by and then we are hit with the realizations later of the would haves, should haves, could havesโ€ฆ if only we had done it different.

And what good does that do? 

What are you afraid of?

When we allow our hearts to break repeatedly, we all of a sudden wake up to the realization that we are meant to feel deeply, to cry profusely, to weep in longing for everything to be different.

This is waking up.

If we live protected, we become afraid to fly.  If we live in safety, we remain caged.  Waking up to our failures is one of lifeโ€™s greatest gifts. 

Only in the full awakening is the bliss we are seeking.

We have longings, we have wants, we have so much to experience. 

Open your eyes and see, the way our horizons meet, and the way you can match up with all that you desire.

We must dive deep into the shadows, become the shadows, get related to the darknessโ€ฆ before we can truly become the light. 

Stop glossing it over, taking breadcrumbs, or allowing things to just remain where they are. 

Break open and break yourself free.

Fall and fail again.   

Because in the fallingโ€ฆ in the failureโ€ฆ WE GET TO CHOOSE AGAIN. 

We get to pick up the pieces we want and leave the rest. 

Pay attention, listen to your heartโ€ฆ. and you will knowโ€ฆ here it is again and this time Iโ€™m jumping all inโ€ฆ no matter what. 

This time it will be differentโ€ฆ

You will get 3 steps further than beforeโ€ฆ. And you may even take 6 steps backwardโ€ฆ but then you will go 9 steps forward. And one day you will leapโ€ฆ one day you will fly. 

Do it anyway.

Itโ€™s comingโ€ฆ itโ€™s getting closerโ€ฆ

I promise itโ€™s almost here. 


Itโ€™s times like these, when we fail and fail again that we get to break apart all we have ever known and then have the opportunity to build again. The rebuilding means we get to open ourselves to new life, new people, new places and new things. In the newness of it all is when we come upon partnerships that will attract the miraculous. And only this can occur with ashes and dust.


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Lesson 10 โ€” Acceptance and Intentions

(Taken from Transcending Limitations – How To Start Where You Are & Create Your New World)

Accepting where we are in this moment helps us surrender to what will come. Accepting our path helps us create our reality so that we can create lasting changes in our world. Accepting what is appearing before us helps us forgive and release the energy to be transformed and free us permanently from its perceived control over our lives. Through acceptance we can finally see what is happening within and around us. We finally accept how powerful we truly are and our ability to co-create everything that is showing up in our lives. We have accepted that our unconscious intentions have been creating the life that appears before us and we realize we can consciously create anew. As we consciously accept our power, we accept our ability to create new intentions filled with our conscious desires. This creates the momentum needed for lasting change  to happen.   Allowing the people, places, and things to come in and help us construct the new life we are creating.

Once we realize what we need to do differently, through acceptance, we  consciously decide to lift  the veils and merge with the most powerful force of the universe; our connection with prana, the  life force of Creator itself. This is a powerful way to live working through us and allowing life force energy to move us consciously into the reality in line with our highest potential and soul purpose.  We release control to something bigger than ourselves that has been whispering to us and asking us to follow.  Life becomes more fulfilling, and our lights begin to brighten this world.

This is  divine orchestration.  We are spiritual beings with a soul purpose greater than anything our minds can perceive. Our heart intelligence feels the calling for something more.  There is more to life unexplainable and strongly felt with a  longing for change and living the life you were inspired to become. 

The root of significant  change, the root of  creation, and the root of every inspired being desiring  to be different, seeks for this stretching and shifting to occur.  It becomes disturbing to be normal and they seek to know themselves completely.. This is the beginning of a journey taking them to lasting change and the truth of their soul. .

This is not done by force.  It is a whisper and a gentle calling us back to our truth.  It is not a math problem or a cause-and-effect situation. Sometimes it is a subtle build of pressure that has been ignored for too long building into  congestion so great it can no longer be ignored. In the moment, it feels most uncomfortable, when we may be  trying to suppress or push it away, limit the sensations, or judge and fight back is the moment of  true wisdom emerging and erupting within us. In this moment we realize there is something more.  Before we can go any further, we must surrender to its calling to go deeper. Whatever it may be.

This is when we accept, we can no longer do this alone, we must ask for help, and accept our higher purpose is calling us to step forward, rise up, and become our calling for this lifetime. Real and lasting shifts are not created by ego but by co-creating with Creator itself. This is how miracles happen. In the moment that there is nothing else to do, that there is no longer a fight to engage and there is no longer anything to run from we do nothing. Doing nothing allows everything to become undone. Allowing everything to become undone is when everything opens and all possibilities appear before you. It is here when we finally wake up and see behind all the illusions of everything that was always there waiting for us. It is so simple and yet we make it so uniquely complex. We are that creative and that imaginative that we think we have all this under control. When we do not. When we accept that thought, that idea, we can then surrender with our whole body, and it all happens right then and right there. It is then you become one with the I Am. For our thoughtful minds, this equates to an experience such as thisโ€ฆ

Time and time again in my life I have been faced with trepidation. Every time a doctor told me something could not be done, that the impossible could never be achieved, and that I needed to stop trying so hard. Every time a family member decided they knew more than I did, or had this all figured out, I felt this burning sensation within my body that screamed at me! It was so disconcerting that nothing could ignore it. I was so angry with irritation that I was being told โ€˜noโ€™ in so many ways that it felt like a massive boulder was laying on my chest and I could barely breathe or stay where I was. I was determined to prove them wrong.

When they told me that Ethan would never walk, I wanted to scream from the depths of my soul! When they told me I was not to go to college as a teenager and that my family was not college material, I wanted to kick down every door that closed in front of me. When they said that my child had a psychosis that was passed down from generation to generation, I halted their words and felt a huge constriction within me that could do nothing else but claw my way through the thick goo of cellular limitation that was keeping our family and the rest of the world from the way through to the other side of miraculous. I burst the bubble of disgust and exploded into a sea of miracles that knew life was supposed to be amazing. How could anyone ever tell us otherwise? Why do they feel it is their right to do so! What was this?! For me, it is an unexplainable burst of volcano spirit that does not halt and will never do so. This was my spirit sensation that needed to be heard. This was my body speaking to me telling me to go deeper and use this prana energy to make the changes needed to shift our world.

It is all about sensation. The pressure, the angst, the constrictions, the pounding, the place within that burns, โ€˜ugh!โ€™ Feel it, sense it, be in it, go through it. It is as if a baby is birthing through the constricted birth canal that must flex and pull and stretch its way into existence. There are no words, only sensation pulling you through to the other side of revelation. We sense something needs to happen, something needs to shift, that an energy is ready to rise up within us. And then we just allow it to happen with no judgements. Unfortunately, we as adults have been trained to remain within our heads ignoring our instincts. We attempt to explain, rationalize, or judge. This is not what creates lasting shifts of transformation. We must be where we are, sense, feel, and drop into the experience.

Acceptance is possible in the moment you notice how you are trying to control the situation. Accepting the sensations and surrendering to the awareness allows us to consciously drop in and prepare us for the next step: surrender.

Surrender is where the magic happens. This is when we consciously return to the marvelous moments that have been unconsciously repeating in our life. We step off the hamster wheel of life and consciously choose to breathe into what is happening. This is when we merge with the juicy still point that we and our lineage never resolved and released from our ancestry.  Through our consciousness we now have the incredible opportunity to do the work with the Creator that will permanently shift and create the miracle. This is the exact moment when a choice is made to complete the process of suffering and step into a new reality of consciousness filled with the choice of another way to live life. We are no longer the mistakes of our individual and collective past.

This may come as an image or memory or something that may not even make sense. This is the beautiful, imaginative, and creative knowing within you, that is bringing you to the golden moment of miraculous change. This is the moment when we initially lost our heart intelligence that knows we are connected to all that is. This is all space-time connection, between the past, present, and future all in one. This is the moment we can now go even deeper.

This moment is our opportunity to breathe into what is happening, to take long slow โ€” very slow โ€” deep breaths into everything and trust. We do thisโ€ฆ We breathe, no matter what, no matter what else happens, no matter how many tears, how many tissues, how much anger or rage is in there. We breathe slowly into just the one moment, not the story, and only that one brief and passing moment. It is only in that one brief โ€˜nowโ€™ moment that we instantaneously separated, decided something, and reactively tried to solve the situation. This is when we separated ourselves from the one thing that could have taken care of it all. In that moment, and only that โ€˜nowโ€™ moment, is when we miraculously return to our heart.

To be in the sensations we have been trying to avoid our entire life is the very moment that truth emerges. What will happen next is beyond understanding with the mind. It is an all-encompassing embrace from something so unexplainable, so extraordinary; it is beyond words or thoughts. It cannot be explained and only felt with the heart. This is when the forgiveness sets in, and heart intelligence rises.

Forgiveness is when all the limitations of the mind merge together with the oneness of Creator โ€” your Creator that is within your everlasting life and heart. That is when the image, the memory, the snapshot in time is forgiven and released. This is when we finally understand our part in the creation. This was our derailment by either our hand or the hand of another. This is when we created false beliefs, held regrets, or retreated to protect or survive. This is when we felt our worlds close in on us. This is when we had no other choice but to leave all the love, the knowing, and the oneness behind. In this one very precious moment is when you realized all of this, and it is here where you now return. And as you merge again with Creator, as you ask, you humbly know that you are now receiving the help you always wanted and always knew was possible but creatively and collectively forgot. That is when you forgive yourself, you forgive Creator, and you forgive your entire lineage and family for all of this because you just did not know. In this now moment when you do, this is when something even more amazing happens.

It is here, and only here, when everything resolves and releases. All time does not exist anymore and in this moment of space is when the miracle happens. Whatever that is, or was, or came to be in time merges together. Time stops. You stop. Everything is changedโ€ฆ Everythingโ€ฆ Everyโ€ฆ Thingโ€ฆ E-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g becomes the nothing from which it came.

This is the body of creation that exists within us all. Yes, you are all that is, and nothing can take that away because you are everything and nothing at the same time. When we understand this, we embody the miracle. We know anything is possible. We return home. Heaven was always right here within us.

Our Purpose is to question everything…be curious, believe in the unbelievable, rise above & BE-COME

[An excerpt from Lesson 13 – Question Everything – “Transcending Limitations” Jennifer Lauren]

In the moment negative thoughts or beliefs arise, and the limitation has appeared, we turn it around. Every limitation is answered with a โ€˜why notโ€™ and every negative thought or belief is answered with a โ€˜cancelingโ€™ of that thought. We feel the negativity, we are aware that it is happening, and in that awareness, we shift into a new state of awareness without the limitation, simply by questioning โ€˜why not?โ€™ We feel them, we name them, and then we allow them to go. Simply, it is allowing ourselves to feel the limitations of our mind, understand they are illusions of the past, accept they have been there for a  long time hiding  in the shadows, and we commit to questioning everything surrounding the limitation.

For example, Ethan, being diagnosed with a medical condition, has been told repeatedly there are certain things he will never be able to do mentally and physically in this current paradigm. With each limiting belief we peeled back the layers in this realm, decided we had a choice to question the current reality showing up and choose to accept what was happening or find another way.

At first, we had some very difficult life-threatening choices to make. We were told that if certain procedures were not done to save his life he would die. So, as parents in fear and wanting our child to survive we put our faith in the hands of the doctors, and he indeed did survive. Grateful as we were in the skills of the professionals, what we failed to see at the time is as we continually only trusted in the doctors, we failed to trust within ourselves. We gave up ourselves, though allowing a predicted outcome to prevail. Naturally, everything they determined would happen based on medical science, did. When he was born, his life was based on survival. We did the things we were told that needed to be done to survive. This was necessary, and it saved his life.  

On the other hand, we were still limited by our own beliefs. You see, if Ethan did not come into this life with the condition that he did, he would have had a completely different birth and a completely different purpose. But he came in with this diagnosis on purpose. It was his purpose to do this, to be this so that we could see that there is always another way. His life has been a product of questioning everything. When they said he would not walk, we asked, โ€œWhy not?โ€ We were told exactly โ€˜why notโ€™ by doctors and other professionals, and we had a choice to make. Believe in the limitation or find another way. We found the other way.

When we were told he needed surgeries to correct and take care of limitations he would always have with his bowels and bladder and kidneys, we asked, โ€œWhy?โ€ and they told us โ€˜whyโ€™, all the limitations of โ€˜whyโ€™. I asked the universe, โ€œWhy not?โ€ and I was shown because it was what you believe. So, I questioned the belief and chose another way. Never having bowel, bladder, or kidney issues. Ever.

Finally, his shunt, (an instrument surgically implanted in a child to help pump cerebral spinal fluid throughout the body) we were told this would need multiple revisions his entire life and to expect multiple surgeries every year, not to mention a host of other issues related to cognitive functioning. So, what happened? You guessed itโ€ฆ We found another way. Ethan became an anomaly and the kid that was the โ€˜healthiestโ€™ kid they had ever seen. It didnโ€™t require magic or miraculous prayers reserved for the worthy few. What it took was the courage to question everything along with belief in the miraculous. We were convinced there had to be a better way. We were convinced we could not live our life like a textbook, and we had to do something else. We were convinced we would not become another statistic. We needed another way; their rules were too limiting, too unnatural, too constricting, and too separating from inspired living. The only way that felt better, sensed better, created a more fun and joyful way for us, for Ethan, for our life, was to question โ€œWHY NOT?โ€ and then find another way.

When you question everything, you question the very fabric within you, your family, your lineage, and your ancestors. You question all the thoughts and beliefs within your life that have ever made up your life, and when you do that, it forces you to go within. When you go within, you get to know what you genuinely believe and if you donโ€™t like what you see you get to change it. Every perceived problem has an answer and in this reality, the problem no longer exists because we know that once we see the limitation, the answer already appears. It is that fast, so fast that soon the problems become nonexistent. Or if the โ€˜problemโ€™ does persist we see it as an opportunity to find another way. When it happens enough, and we see the results of our paying attention we are taken to an entirely new level of understanding and then that new level becomes our floor of existence. It is here that we begin again.

Questioning everything begins with curiosity. It begins with a knowing that this canโ€™t be right because I trust when it does not feel right. It is calling me to notice something is not lining up within myself. Once that happens, you begin opening doors to new ways of thinking which opens doors to new ways of being, which opens doors for all possibilities to drop in.

When you are aware of your own limitations, you have the power to free yourself from the limitation itself. It is here that you realize nothing is holding you back from anything. It was only there to help you see the truth. You are to move higher and higher and continually release boundaries for yourself by questioning everything. As you do this first for yourself it will naturally ripple out and extend to others around you.  They will sense the shift and eventually be inspired to go above and beyond their own perceived ceilings to lift themselves to a new level where their ceiling is now their floor.

You are to keep going, raising yourself higher and higher so that eventually, ceilings donโ€™t exist, and your limitless existence is all there is. That is what childlike questioning allows us to do. It asks, โ€œWhy not?โ€ to everything with a curious, joyful, limitless expression that is open to all possibility. This is the true gift of a child. The purpose of a child is to help the adult see what they once believed for themselves.