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“Don’t get me flowers for Mother’s Day…or I will be pissed.”

“Do me a favor…Don’t get me flowers under any circumstances or I will be pissed.”

I sent this text to my husband the other day.  I was referring to Mother’s Day.  The holiday that creeps around every year like the rest of them, you know…Mother’s Day, Father’s Day, Grandparent’s day, etc.  This day has always been a sense of soreness for me.  Until I decided to stop hiding my feelings about what this day truly means, at least for me.  I have hid my feelings for a rather long time.  I mean, how could I not when we live in a society where we are taught to contain, hold back, shushed, and looked at as ‘bad’ if we are too loud, exuberant or colorful to say the least.  I have a neighbor, who’s son went to school dressed in the most amazing and beautiful colored costumes on all the fun holidays.  He was eccentric and encouraged to be so by his parents.  They wanted him to express himself and be free to be himself.  It was deemed as ‘cute’ when he was younger in elementary school.  But then when he moved onto middle school he began to be categorized and slandered for his harmless expression of himself.  It made me sick to think that as children bullied him for being himself the faculty supported this notion by telling the mom one day, “Well, if he is going to be ‘that way’ he as to be able to take the comments that other’s say to him.  I mean, he is different, and if he wants to be different, he must be able to ‘take’ the comments of other children.”  This was an administration member of the local middle school explaining this to the mom of the boy who had gone to school wildly dressed that day in celebration of yet another holiday and received slandering comments from the children.  The mom found out about this, and like many mothers, called the school to inform them of what had happened. 

Humph.  I think to myself.  “If he wants to be different, he must be able to ‘take’ the comments of other children.”  We actually believe this stuff!?  We actually still believe in our 2020 society that if we want to be different we have to be able to secretly ‘take’ the rolling eyes, the whispers of slander, and the note passing that goes on day to day in our schools today.  Bullying is no longer out right hitting and destroying your personal items.  No, it has become a secret society that hides out of their own fears and desperations and jealousies of wanting to be different but never being able to take the plunge out of fear of being caught or unaccepted by the rest of society.  We have accepted this as the new normal.  It’s heart breaking.  Some of you may shake your heads in denial that this is not what is still going on today.  But I encourage you to talk to your kids.  I mean, really talk to your kids. Spend time with them asking them deep questions.  Not the surface kinds that ask… “How was school today” when they walk in the door which offers virtually nothing but a ‘fine’ before they scatter off to their rooms.  No, find the time on a walk, while they sit on the couch, or that off beat time that isn’t plannable.  I encourage you to take the moments that present themselves to you in any varying ways and dig deep with questions such as, “Tell me about what it’s like to be at school during the day.”  “Tell me how it is when you want to talk to a friend or join in on a conversation, but it may feel awkward or uninviting.”  “What does it feel like to have to raise your hand in class or to be called on by the teacher unexpectedly.”  “Has that ever happened to you?  Has this happened to anyone else?  What was it like?” 

I encourage you to ask deep questions that encourage conversation about things that they know are happening but don’t know how to tell anyone.  Because I promise you that one of these questions will open the door to a knowing within them that wants to be expressed but they don’t know how to do that because most of us truly just don’t want to know anyway.  When we find out… I promise you will be surprised at what really goes on, still. 

So, I sent this text to my husband because I really did NOT want anything for Mother’s Day.  Not because I was boycotting the day all together but because I had, had enough of the celebratory ‘feel’ of a day that means nothing to me.  Now, I am sharing my perspective.  I am not trying to change the world here.  What I am doing is sharing what is true for me… 

I never understood Mother’s Day.  I never understood this whole idea of celebrating something that clearly many of us just don’t know how to do anyway.  When I became a mother, it was like a raw slap in the face where the burn and red-handed mark lasted for days, months, and years.  It was as if someone painted this glorious picture of what motherhood should be like…it was a glorious land that when you arrived you would never turn away from it again.  You would want to stay here forever amongst that lush green landscape, carnival colored flowers just bursting everywhere you looked, birds flying, and rainbow covered sky.  It was anticipated as the best event of your life besides for marriage.  We had parties and showers to celebrate the incoming child that was going to light up our life.  We received gift after gift into this new magical land that would help us manage our new bundle of joy as we learned and carefully took on our new responsibilities of bathing, feeding and loving this incredible gift from God.  Oh, what we do to paint a Never Never Land that we will never want to return from. 

Me, I wanted to return.  When I got to Never Land… I wanted to march right out of there and run the other way.  No!  This is not what I paid for….I want my ticket back!  It wasn’t because I didn’t love my child….I did…I actually never felt a love for someone like I felt when my children were born.  It was that no one told me the real hard true facts of motherhood.  No one sat me down and told me that it was going to be one of the hardest things you will ever do and there is no way to do it right.  If someone said,

“Jennifer I have a ticket to another land that is more beautiful and amazing than any place you have ever been before.  You will go there and discover parts of yourself that you never knew existed.  Parts of yourself that will bring you joy and elation and parts of you that will bring desperation and depression.  If someone had told me it’s a transformative land and one that you will never return from the same again.  This is a land where the journey never ends and will never take you to a perceived destination.  You will constantly be learning, constantly growing, and it will feel awful, most of the time because you will never think that you are doing it right. The journey will go on forever in this new land and the lessons will be hard mostly because growing requires a lot of energy.  The truest most wonderful thing about this land is that you will never be the same and you will always be expected to do things that are outside your comfort zone.  You will have to be something that you are not ready to become.” 

 I would ask them, “Why would I pay for that?” and walk away. 

Yep, that was me at the time I had kids.  I had no clue what motherhood really was.  Nothing out there showed me that.  I had a mom that bucked out and died of cancer when I was 16.  Not because she was a victim of a disease but because life was just too hard.  This mom thing was a false idea that had been planted into her at an early age as well.  She embarked on the same journey and failed miserably.  Because she did not have the skills to rise above all the complications in her life.   

And then I had a representation in society that painted a picture of motherhood that seemed like the destination that I wanted to have.  You know, the “Leave it to Beaver” mom with the perfectly curled short hair, white shiny pearls around her neck, the freshly pressed dress that was starch white, and pointed heeled shoes she wore all day long! Ouch! She made being a mom look so wonderful!  Always cheerful, always knowing, always monotone with worldly advice for her young ones.  She was taken care of by her husband who would go to work everyday and provide a stable environment of trust and acceptance for the entire family.  I actually thought that that was FAMILY!  That I wanted that!  I wanted to fit into a mold that was what society painted it be… a fantastical fantasy life that was so far from what is true and reverent to life that we have felt like that we can never be or live up to this standard because this standard is impossible!

Sadly, I had no idea.  No idea.  I grew up in a dauntingly chaotic household where the police coming to my house once a week to break up a raging fight by my mother and father and brother made just way too much noise for the neighbors.  Thankfully, their calls, and my dad being taken away by the police actually gave us peace week in and week out.  I remember trying to get our dog, Corky, to go out and distract them because I wanted them desperately to stop fighting.  I tried myself, but I was relentlessly pushed away and sent to my room with a single handed push like I was a pebble shot away by an index finger across the room while they continued their brawl. 

But, I wanted this… a normal family.  I had no idea what normal was. 

Fast forward many years later… I have three kids and an amazing husband who loves me.  Loves me so much that I can say to him… “Don’t get me flowers or I’ll be pissed.”  Why would I say such a thing?  Because I am tired of falling into the Mother’s Day trap.  Where kids and husbands feel pressured to do something nice for their mothers without for a second asking themselves why do they actually do this?  I’ll never forget my husband coming to me year after year telling me, “Mother’s Day is this weekend and if you are going to the store can you pick up some cards for my mom?”  Amazing that he would think of this on Wednesday and then we would have to Fed Ex Mother’s Day cards to his mom to get there by Saturday. Again. Year after year. Why?  Because if his mom did not receive something that showed that her boy cared she would be forever hurt and just hurt enough that his dad would call to tell him so.  Oh, the pressure.

The pressure to do something just because it was expected.  This to me just does not make any sense.  I loved the little hand made gifts that my children used to give me when they were in elementary school and the teacher would spend the time to help each child create something for mother’s day and the child would run home eager to just give mom their gift without the understanding they have to wait until Sunday.  I loved that!  No pressure and no expectation…they just wanted to celebrate mom no matter what day it was.  I did this too. 

As they got older, the pressure to perform remained the same but the intensity just unconsciously elevated itself because now they were expected to come up with something on their own.  Even if someone went our and hand picked a card for them so that they would have to write a note to mom or grandma without understanding why they were being forced to do this in the first place. 

I can imagine what may be going on in my kids minds today if they were to actually write what they really are thinking, “Thanks mom for birthing me.  Although you didn’t have to do it, you did it anyway.  Thanks for everything you do for me even though I can’t recall what that was… oh yay, driving me to practice and such.  Oh, and have a good day.”

 They’d ask themselves afterward… “Did I do that right?  Do I pass the test? Gosh, I hope what I wrote is ok.”

Yep…that’s it… they really don’t get it… and either do I. 

So I put a stop to it…for me anyway.  I have officially boycotted Mother’s Day.  Not because I am angry…ok well, maybe I am mildly annoyed with the whole thing. 

Like, the holiday was invented in the later 1850’s not because someone decided to invent a day to celebrate Mothers, not as a day to celebrate one’s own mother, but as days of service to help out other mothers who were less fortunate band together to help teach them hygiene practices to take care for their children and keep them from getting sick.  This was a ‘work day of days’ for mothers to help other mothers. A Mother’s Day Work Club, none the less. (TIME Mag. The Surprising Sad Origins of Mother’s Day, https://time.com/4771354/mothers-day-history-origins/ )

Or that the Mother’s Day theme of staying home with your children was really emphasized as a last stitched effort to push back on the 20th century Women’s movement that wanted to get out into the world to work and make a living. 

So, for me, Mother’s Day is a choice.  Do I really want to celebrate Mother’s Day?  No.  Because we already are who we are either by conscious or unconscious choices that we have made in our life.  Mother’s Day has become the largest grossing holiday next to Christmas.  Why?  An effort to sensationalize something that just isn’t true.  We are not meant to be the version of ourselves that is painted in all those commercials.  I won’t even get into the religious version of mother hood.  That just opens a whole other can of worms that can’t even be discussed in this short essay. (Oh! And I can hear the back lash now!)

I will say this… I do celebrate mothers who realize they have become the most truest and most deepest part of themselves not because of anything that they have seen or heard on tv, Instagram, or Facebook, BUT in spite of it.  

So on mother’s day…I have decided instead to remind my kids of this… to courageously be the most truest and deepest part of themselves as much as possible… and then maybe I will have consciously come upon the true meaning of being a mother. For Mother’s Day I instead wrote them this…

Dear Ethan, Aiden, and Nora,

You have heard me say that I don’t want cards, flowers, or gifts for Mother’s Day.  Actually, you heard me tell dad that I would be pissed if you or anyone else did this for me today.  You may be wondering, Why?  Well…I thought about it and decided I wanted you to know this…Mother’s Day is a celebration of women coming together to celebrate the enormous process of raising children.  Yes you.  I would never trade this choice in for anything else…although as you know I sure do act like I don’t want to be a mother at times.  I don’t want you to learn through an expectation that sets you up for buying me something or making me something on a day that we are supposed to celebrate just because everyone else is doing it.  You know our family is not typical which is what we need to celebrate and what we need to learn to do more of as much as possible.  I don’t ever want anything from the three of you.  Not because I am a martyr or a victim.  No.  Because I want you to know the truest part of being a mother.  It is not the gifts or the cards or the flowers.  It was a choice that I made a long time ago to be and do something that has brought me to a life with you today.  TOGETHER we have created something beautiful.  I did not do this alone. WE have created a family that I never had.  WE have created a place in my heart that grows enormously with each passing year and all the wins and losses that come out of it as WE work together to make something of this world that can be anything that WE want it to be. 

Which brings me to my next point…. I don’t want you to buy me or make anything for me because I already know that you appreciate me.  I know this because you get upset when I don’t do the normal things, like wake you up in the morning when I get too busy.  When I don’t have time to make dinner, you miss it.  When I don’t have time to do the laundry, you wonder where are my clean clothes?  You miss the normalcy that you were used to.  I see that.  I see how you value and appreciate through the losses you endure as we all shift and grow and create new states of normal within our family.  I will always be your mother but I never want you to ever think that you should be like me.  Not for a minute.  I want you to be anything but me.  In fact, I want to encourage you to do nothing like I did and marry no one like me if you even choose to get married.  I want you to do so many things in your life that if you take your whole life figuring our what you want to do when you grow up that I will know that I did my job to the truest that I could have ever done.  I want you to be thinking so outside the normal that you look at others and wonder why they do things the same way that they do all the time.  I want you to wonder about everything.  And above all else… be yourself.  I want you to be so outside of yourself that through you being the version of you that is so insanely different from me that you inspire me to be more of myself.  I want you to not follow the same path as everyone else… I want you to bulldoze your own path.  That takes effort, responsibility, and a desire to create an abnormal life.  I want you to know I love abnormal and god knows you know that I love it when we ask, “Why the Fuck do we always do this, this way?” and then we don’t.  Because we have figured out that its not the path we want to take.  I want you to never be like me or anyone else.  I want you to turn away form the normal that you see on Facebook, Instagram, snap chat and certainly at school.  And I want you to buck the norm.  I want you to investigate, inquire, retreat, and come out always pushing the normal box over.  I want you to be everything like you.  And then I want you to teach me to be more of myself by you doing what abnormal does.  Nothing like anyone else. 

I know this may seem puzzling right now.  And this may not make sense… but do me one favor… on mother’s day… lets make this a day that we begin to celebrate what it means to be so sure of yourself that you don’t need anyone to give you anything and you don’t need someone to do something nice for you that is expected.  Let this be a reminder that you are to do three things in life…

  1. Question everything
  2. Feel everything
  3. Follow nothing

*Question why you are doing what you are doing in every moment.  Always know what is true and right for you. 

*Feel what is happening in every moment.  Always know what is true and what is right for you.

*Resolve to follow nothing because you are always being what is true and right for you. 

If you can follow these three things for the rest of your life, then I know that as a mom I have received all that I have ever wanted.  Three seeds that I helped plant in this world to grow into the versions of themselves that touches the truest and brightest and deepest versions of themselves and this planet. 

Lastly, embody your own knowing that nothing out there can ever fill you in here.  (Your heart) Especially not me.  Learn to fill yourself up in here so that you can spill out into the world out there in a way that is completely who you already are…you. 

Then I will know that I succeeded at doing my job that this world says that Mother’s do on Mother’s Day…Nothing…Because you realized you are already everything and needed nothing from me to get there.

And you know what… I really don’t want flowers because then that would be taking form the greatest mother of us all, Earth.  And she really needs them right now, more than me.  Maybe that is what they meant by mothers helping mothers on Mother’s Work Day.   

Love you more and less motherly every day,

Mom

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I was just 17…

I was just 17.

I went for a walk this morning with my dog Larkin like I always do, at least 3-4 times a day now, since we have been confined to our homes for over a month. I was feeling very lethargic and like I just did not want to be outside, but I went anyway.  

I had been wondering for several weeks now how can I help in a situation like this? This was on my mind on this morning. I continued, walking down the street checking out all the cracks in the sidewalk like I usually do. I saw the curvature on the one block that I have seen probably 100 times by now from the tree that was dug out a while ago never to return. I saw the same muddy spots, buildings on the side, and rocks in the road. I tend to look down a lot because of Larkin. I am usually talking to her or trying to steer her in the most opportune places for her to go in case she decides to relieve herself. So, I tend to notice the cracks in the sidewalk alot. As I was crossing the street feeling my malaise coursing through my body and noticing how foggy it was outside which only added to my discontent, I came upon a spillage of shiny pennies laying in the middle of the street. I was in awe of the number of pennies and quickly became excited to say the least. Wow, I thought to myself, this must be a gift because all of a sudden, I started to feel a little bit better gazing upon the shiny pennies in the street. You know I felt like it was a sign.  Like it was my ancestors talking to me.  I felt as though my mom was right there.   She has been gone for 30 years now and I feel like it was just yesterday that she left.  Now since we are all in this quarantine period, I have no distractions, I have nothing to take my attention from a deep darkness that still resides within me.  I am no longer attached to anyone or anything that will distract me from the current moment. Meaning, I have no phone calls or text messages coming from my kids or clients, I have no appointments to get to, I have no requirements or requests for errands to run, and I have nothing pressing that needs to get done which would distract me from what’s truly going on within me.

So, there I was, walking Larkin, stopped in the middle of a street and lingering above the shiny copper pennies that laid in the road feeling this subtle excitement like a piece of me was waking up as I came upon my new treasure.  I cannot explain it, but I had the urge to bend down in the middle of the busy road with Larkin attached to me and reach for all the pennies and scoop them up one by one.  So, with each of my 3 fingers on my right hand I picked up each individual penny and placed them in my left hand while carefully making sure I held on to Larkin’s leash. Of course, I was worried that somebody would make a turn on to the street and not see me crouched down or Larkin because of the dense fog, so I did this as quickly as I could in order to make sure we frankly didn’t get hit by a car. As I pick them up, I thought to myself, I wonder how many pennies are in my hand and as I counted them, I notice there were 17.  17 pennies in my hand.  What is this message? I began to think, wondering if there could be a connection. I crossed the road and continued to walk on with 17 pennies in my left-hand and Larkin in my right. I thought, I wonder what does 17 mean to me? I also wondered what am I going to do with 17 shiny copper pennies? Clearly there was no need for me to keep 17 pennies so as I contemplated what the number meant and continued to walk on, I decided that I would scatter these pennies with kindness on my usual route.  As I walked on, I began noticing many things within myself.  I felt unsettled, angry, fearful and tired. Even though these 17 pennies made me feel a little bit better I still felt all of this within my body. It was showing up as sensations of just general tiredness. An unexplained desire to just go back to bed. But I kept on, I kept walking, I kept walking Larkin, and I decided to drop every one of my pennies along my route dispersing them in different areas hoping that the next people that would come along would find joy in finding their new lucky penny.

I began to imagine the little kid on the sidewalk picking up a shiny piece of luck, pressing it in his pocket, and putting a smile on his face. I saw the woman walking along just like me and finding a penny and she too would know it carried a reminder for her to remember.   

Then I remembered what was happening when I was 17. I had just finished my junior year of high school my mom had just died from cancer, my brother had entered a mental institution for a schizophrenic break that he had while attending Ivy League, and my Dad had avoided all contact with me due to his own struggles with alcohol.  I was living with a family who loved me dearly but felt very uneasy and displaced. I was around people but felt all alone. I was a teenager without the skills or the understanding that what I was going through was valid and completely justified. It was an exceedingly difficult time for me. I had a place to live but felt homeless. I had people who loved me but felt abandoned. I had people that encouraged me to go on but felt very discouraged. All the feelings of insecurity, remorse abandonment, unworthiness, and depression came rushing back during this one walk that I had been on by now over 100 times. Right then and right there I was 17 again feeling and sensing the tightness in my throat, the leakage in my eyes, and the stuffiness within my nose. As I kept walking, I kept releasing. I was releasing years of anger and anguish and self-doubt and unworthiness and sadness over a time in my life when the world felt like a very unsafe place to be. I didn’t care if people saw the tears in my eyes or witnessed a passing woman’s anguish in the city streets.  I finally felt justified and the pennies helped.  With each penny that I dropped, I had positive feelings of new life, new sensations, and new smiles and laughter. It was as if I was releasing sadness that had still remained with an understanding resolve for the positive vibes that eventually return with every penny that I dropped. With every tear that I shed it felt difficult and good at the same time.

I share this with you just to share a piece of me and my history.  I share the possibility that maybe there is a piece of all of us that is going through all of this a little differently because we all have different backgrounds, different histories, different perspectives ourselves.  WE never know what filters may be on our lens of reality maybe making our true vision a little harder to truly see with the eyes that we originally had before all of this took place.  I share the possibility that this time that we are all going through together is more than just a time to carry on and get through until things get back to normal. To me, in my perspective, it feels like a time when everything is permanently changing. Normal will not be the same.   It never is when you go through something like this and especially when we collectively go through something like this. It changes us in a way that cannot be explained with words but can only be sensed within our bodies, our hearts. I know that with every unresolved memory that comes up for me during this time I learn to resolve and release them because I have done this all many times before. I’ve lived through a lot of crisis more than I can put in words in this essay. What I do want to offer is encouragement, understanding, peace, love, compassion and kindness for everyone going through hardship for everyone missing out on something for everyone having a tough time.  I get it.  I may not fully understand what you’re going through, I never will.   I do understand that this can be a particularly hard time for many in so many different ways I just want you to know I hear you I understand and I’m here for you with what I can offer… a friendship, a possible understanding, and the possibility that maybe I can help. So here’s what I’d like to offer…

I would like to offer a donation based Intuitive Clearing Session to anyone who would like to energetically work on any issue having to do with emotional pain, sadness, stress, anxiety, fear or trauma.  I have training ranging from reiki mastership to craniosacral therapy to ancestral clearing with John Newton to zen shiatsu.   I am an Occupational Therapist who has worked through much of my own trauma in many life experiences and with my own lineage and family.  I have numerous years of experience.  I enjoy working from teens to adults.  Just respond to this email and we can schedule our session.  All sessions are done over the phone or through a web format most comfortable for you. 

I would also like to offer the 28 Days of Conscious Intuitive Living again. I will be beginning this on Monday May 4th.  This is a 4-week program of intensive healing work that delivers audio recordings and email writeups to your inbox every morning.  This is a huge undertaking for me and one I am willing to share. I will be redoing this once again.  In order to honor those that have been a part of this program in the past the price will remain the same but two things will differ:

-1- If you choose to be a part of the program you receive an opportunity to be a part of it as many times as you like for the same amount. Also, if you have done this program before you are free to begin again for no charge.

-2- If it is too much to pay the full amount, contact me.  We will work out a way for you to get on the program that is good and right for your resources at this time.   

Lastly, I would like to offer a new class for everyone to be a part of… Meridians, Movement, Breath, and Forgiveness.  This will be an on-line class…with the interest I will offer classes to help release and resolve ancestor and lineage long held beliefs within the body in order to help with your own healing for today.  This will be donation based. 

I need to hear from you and your interest in any of the above.  I can only go on with any of these programs if the people come. 

My heart wants as many people as possible to receive. I honestly believe that everyone has their gifts their abilities in their own way to help our current situation. I would like to be a part of helping.   

Please contact me if you have any interest at all.  Let us connect… even if it is to chat. Thanks for listening thanks for actually reading this entire passage. It means a lot to me. 

Who knows, maybe you are feeling ‘17’ too. 

Love,

Jennifer

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Lesson 6 — I Wonder (taken from Transcending Limitations)

10 minutes of inspiration

We must wonder every day. We must take the time to turn every lower negative thought into a game of wonder. We must do as a child does. Wonder in every way. We can wonder about everything, every person, place, and thing. Wondering can look something like this:

I wonder if I could change this enormous house into a huge garden or a bungalow for homeless people!

I wonder what it would be like to rollerblade from Illinois to Florida!

I wonder what would happen if I kept wondering about all the wonderful  things I wonder about!

Many of us lost the capability to wonder in adulthood. We forgot what it feels like to wonder. When did the seriousness become us? We must return to the realm of wondering. If we are to transform this world into the New Earth, we must wonder about everything that comes into our lives. Wonder uses imagination and it brings in creativity, fun, joy, and expansion. It never judges or fills our lives with mental thoughts of limitation and “I can’t”. It always asks, “I wonder” and follows it up with imagination and elated being.

I wonder what wonderful things will happen today? Wondering, wonders to the universe and then the universe smiles back with amazing answers of grace and gratitude recognizing the purpose of life is experiencing the ocean instead of  a cup  from the ocean. “I wonder” brings in unlimited expectation, freedom, expansion, joy, and love. It elevates, protects, and enhances everyone and everything it meets. There is no answer of “no” and only an answer of “I wonder”. And as we ask, the answers that come to us are limitless opportunity. To get to this place, we must ‘wonder’ what it would take to get here and, how we can allow  the energy of “I wonder” to transform our lives.

Can you wonder with an inquisitive childlike mind about everything that is happening around you? Even during a conversation that you don’t want to be in. Even amidst the conversation that is a struggle to keep alive. The topic may be dragging on and an enormously difficult time is spent connecting. Suddenly, your child steps in and lightens up the density of the situation with “I wonder how I can connect and lighten this conversation?” You begin to wonder about all types of possibilities and suddenly, the words of a joke come wondering in, lightening up the mood. You tell the joke with such ease and joy that by the end, everyone is laughing and connecting. Now you have 5 new people and 5 new connections who have literally lightened up and experienced how ingeniously fun life can become. This is the magic of “I wonder.” It helps everyone become as a child with an enlightening smile… it just lightens up life!

When you see a limitation… You ask, “I wonder” what it would be like to be without this limitation. You question everything and then you sense and feel within your body where the restriction lays. Where do I feel this in my body? Because when we see something that stands in the way, it is only because we hold something within ourselves that is keeping us from seeing that this limitation is not even real. It is an illusion.

Remember, this is directly connected to the heart. If we see something out there as limiting and frustrating, then we go deeper and take care of our own frustrations that are keeping us from wondering. We can wonder to a state of elevation lifting us higher  to possibilities once thought  as impossible. Ideally, we become everything that is possible. This is the imagination that is more important than mental knowledge. As we open to the possibility  of wondering even more than we already are we give permission for absolutely everything to show up. Try it.

I will never forget sitting in the car with little Ethan in the car seat at a gas station waiting for the car to finish refueling. We just brought Ethan home from the hospital. As I sat waiting, Ethan was sleeping soundly, and I gazed out the front window. I was still in some shock over the new life that was unfolding before us. I was anticipating all the changes we would have to make to adjust to all the medical devices that would fill his newly decorated room and the extra supplies that would have to be stored away.

As I sat there gazing in subtle anxious wonder, I focused on a person running in the distance. This person was out for a jog, running in the direction towards us. As he approached a thought occurred to me, “I wonder what would happen if we could get Ethan to run? I wonder if this is possible?” This was astronomically impossible according to what we were told by the doctors only hours before leaving the hospital. We had already made our upcoming appointments that would be centered around all the things that were wrong with Ethan and his newly developing disabled body.

Despite these thoughts, I continued to gaze out the window and wonder. I wondered if despite all the horrible things the doctors told us about Ethan’s new life if he could learn to walk anyway. I wondered what it would take and how we could make it happen. I wondered if we could make leg braces to support his legs to give him that feeling of strength. I wondered if there were people who would join me in this dream. I wondered what kinds of foods and supplements we could use to help him. I wondered. I just sat there watching the runner inch closer and closer and my mind raced with wonder as my heart began to climb in vibrational joy.

I was no longer caught in anxiety and despair over the day-to-day things I was going to have to do to help Ethan survive. I was now caught up in the wondering of how I was going to help him thrive. Simply by sitting and wondering and being inspired by a runner off in the distance my heart began to sing, wondering about all possibility and how we were going to bridge wonder and reality together so that our dreams would manifest. In that one wonderful moment everything shifted and wondering about doing the impossible became our heightened reality.

When you wonder about things all day long, it will bring up your limiting beliefs about life. When this happens,  notice how it holds a restriction in your body. This is your opportunity to free this area by opening to wonder while  the universe magically drops inspiration into your heart. This opens you to the possibility of seeing, sensing, and knowing that the unlimited will show up. Wondering helps us believe in the possible before it even happens. We must know with absolute certainty  anything is possible before it  happens.

As we work in the realm of “wondering” we are working with our hearts to create amazing  answers to life’s dilemmas. These are just waiting and wanting to be revealed. Everything can happen, will happen, and is happening. Everything.

At any given moment there is something floating out there in the energy of the universe with a new idea, a new solution, and a new answer to anything that you wonder about. It is this way because “I wonder” is a highly creative energy filled with spirit and imagination. When we  connect with the spirit of joy, imagination, love, and creativity there is no way that anything less than this can show up.

This does require practice. We must train ourselves  to wonder as if we would train our body to learn a new exercise such as running, weightlifting, or any number of activities. We must train ourselves to become our  limitless selves. We must wonder every day, multiple times of the day. One hundred times a day we must imagine, we must create, we must elevate. No matter what we believe. No matter what our situation and no matter how far down the rabbit hole we have gone, we can still wonder. It is our job to wake up and see our shortcomings, see our limitations, and then turn them around. This is our way. This is our practice. This is what we are to accomplish individually and collectively.

Therefore, we elevate, and through elevation, we naturally return to the very thing we are. We are meant to transcend all limitations in every way possible. No matter what. There is always an answer and frequently it is something greater than you can ever dream or imagine yourself. This is why we pray, “This or something greater”. Positive expectation plants the seeds of trust in anticipation of the growth. We hold the vision and let go of the outcome. Meaning, I see it, I hold it, and I remain open to it or something better showing up which creates elevation and advance knowing to drop in. This is how masters become masters. They tap into their questioning of “Why not?” Let us see, let us open to the possibility, let us create, and let us do this. Then they invest all their heart and love into expansion in that area, always remaining open to all possibilities, and allowing their minds to be the passengers that help to lead, guide, and direct.

The heart knows. The heart is connected to all that is. The heart is creativity. The heart is imagination. The heart is elevated, expansive, enhanced, an amazing love unlike most have ever experienced before. It is only through the heart that everything can and will and does happen. This is your oneness with all that is, which is how true miracles happen all the time. Then you realize there is no turning back, no other way to live, but to fully give and to love through the heart. The heart can become everything in this universe, and it is right there. Always waiting for you, within yourself.  Just listen to the voice. It knows the way. Open, expand, become, because you are the ocean.

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Manifestation 101 – Our Soul’s Purpose & Spirit’s Joy – 5 Minute Inspiration

Yesterday, I transcended another limitation.  I realized a current belief did not line up with what I intuitively desired and the current relationships showing up. 

I have many goals.  When I took a second, third, and forth look at why something wasn’t showing up in my life, knowing I intuitively wanted this desire to manifest with all my heart, I realized I was the one who needed to shift my own perception so that this idea could begin to manifest.   I reevaluated my approach by using one of my well-established programs, The Sandwich Connection, shifted the barriers through the techniques and my manifestation began to effortlessly unfold.  The people in my life showed up in the way I had always imagined, and the goal became a reality.  The amount of gratitude I had for the enlightenment I felt and the unexplainable satisfaction of figuring out what I was really doing to sabotage this goal became a pivotal realization into my own healing and simultaneously an opening to a world I knew was possible.  It was a monumental turning point. 

I changed the script in my life so that what I truly desired from my heart could be realized.  I sensed, I felt, I breathed, I listened, I asked, and moved my body. Then again, I repeated the process, I sensed more, felt more, breathed more, listened more, asked more, moved more, and kept the process going until it finally happened.  Suddenly… I broke open to the complete understanding of WHAT I WAS TRULY DOING TO KEEP THIS FROM SHOWING UP.  It was a revelation of consciousness unexplainable in words and only truly felt and understood within the heart. 

This shift in perception instantaneously put me on the path to the realization of my dreams. 

When we see where we are and what we have been up to, then we can finally get to where we would desire ourselves to be. 

Quite frankly, if we are connected to Source… which we all are… we become conscious creators in our lives… no matter what.  We must tune into our thoughts, our belief systems, and the energy that is within us and surrounding us.  Our word choices, our body language, our sensations, our experiences all give us clues to why something is happening and how to resolve the current issue.

I did not like what was showing up, so I breathed into every experience where this limitation was showing up.  I sensed deeply into my body and felt fully into the expressions of what was happening around me.  I became still, silent, and fully present with the experience. I allowed the process to unfold within me so that I could merge with what was not showing up and understand. I became aware.   

I didn’t have to relive a story or go into any cycles of drama.  I just became aware of anything that was happening within and around me and allowed for the story my mind was creating to unfold before me.  And then I asked myself the question, “Do I believe this to be true?”  I followed the story line until I realized I had been creating this thought and belief since I was a little girl.  Once I realized I could allow the fragmented girl to merge with my true self I regained a part of me lost in another reality and played the same story line taking away from the current experience I was attempting to manifest.  It became a reunion within myself and the letting go of current perceptions clouding the heartfelt experience I desired. 

Some of us want success but we are secretly afraid that we will fail, lose our current relationships, we don’t deserve our desires, it’s not safe to be ourselves or be seen or even heard.  Any number of beliefs or ideas can show up.   

When this happens, it may be helpful to ask ourselves as a child asks… “why or what is that?” Then as an adult we can ask ourselves with childlike curiosity, “Why do I feel this, why do I believe this, why is this a limitation?” …and resist the temptation to blame, point fingers, or judge anyone and especially ourselves.   Merely sense into the experience, merge with the untruth, and allow it to speak one last time.  Give it the attention it desires for yourself first.  Then we find something amazing happens… instead of the untruth taking us over, we can forgive and release it knowing it was there serving us a purpose at one point in our lives to get us to where we currently are.  We can allow it to be finally forgiven and released knowing that as we do it will evaporate and transcend into a beautiful transformative light energy that will no longer rule our world.  As it evaporates and leaves, we can begin to breathe more, move more, and make more space for what we truly desire to manifest through our hearts.   This is how effortless and expansive this process can be when we learn to merge with ourselves and the SOURCE OF CONSIOCUSNESS within us all. 

We finally merge and create with our Soul’s purpose and Spirit’s joy! 

If you would like more information on how to transcend & transform limitations possibly manifesting in your life… within your current family & relationships, career & purpose, health & spirit on all physical, mental, and emotional levels it may be helpful to contact me and set up a consult to see how one of my many programs or energy sessions may help your process or the process of someone close to you.  I created the Sandwich Connection, Becoming Intuitive, teach Reiki and Kundalini Yoga & Meditation, and  offer personal Energy Healing Sessions with one simple intention… I have one truth… to help the world transcend out of the darkness of lower thoughts & belief systems and ascend into the light as quickly and effortlessly as possible on all levels of reality.    This I know to be true.

“Our power of creation lives through our heart. We see it, we hear it, we sense it, we embody it. It is our navigational system.  It can do, be and allow anything to happen that is truly all encompassing and completely as itself, love.”  ~Transcending Limitations, Jennifer Lauren

Let’s manifest the people, places, and things in your life and help reach the goals and aspirations of the heart.  Let us become our SOUL’S PURPOSE & SPIRIT’S JOY.

All my love and more from the universe of limitless supply…

Jennifer

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Meditation – Can we shape our reality?

Lately, I have been wondering… what is truly important?  There are a lot of things we may value…maybe it is our career, our family, our life purpose, and how we add something precious to this world.  Or maybe for some of us it is just about living day to day and moment to moment because that is just where we are right now.  Sometimes life can be exciting and full of incredible moments of elation and triumph and sometimes life can seem painful and sorrowful. 

There are moments in our lives when all we can do is get through to the next day and there are times when we never want the day to end because things are going that well.  Still further, sometimes striving to have a balance between the two polarities can be our greatest challenge.   

The older I get, the more I realize there is so much that I really don’t understand, nor do I have answers.  So many of us go through so many different shades of color in our lives that it is difficult to determine the answers of how to live our best life.  For everyone it is different.  What I do know for sure is that there are unlimited ways to perceive life and in this web of existence we have choices. 

Sometimes, our choices seem limited and sometimes we are elated with the unlimited possibilities. What I have come to understand is that as we look at life and the many ways to experience ourselves it becomes critical to create a partnership with our minds. 

I realized this mostly when my children were young.  Depending on what was happening in their lives I always wanted to help make something better.  I always tried to make the best of experiences and what we were given being there for them in every way I could.  Sometimes, my efforts paid off and my children thrived and other times no matter what I did or how I framed the experience it was bound to work out less than I had anticipated.  And when things didn’t work out, I tended to blame myself or something else.  Eventually, I realized that neither of these two ways of looking at the world was helpful. 

I had an inkling within me that what I was doing was not very helpful, but I did not know how to help this pattern.  Until one day, I just stumbled on an advertisement for meditation.  The people meditating looked happy.  They looked peaceful and content.  Something I wanted for myself but was ever so difficult to attain. So, I decided to try it out. 

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I’ll never forget the first time I attempted to meditate.  I thought I was supposed to sit and just be… hoping that by staying quiet, sitting quietly, and through shear concentration I could train myself to make my thoughts leave and my mind.  Boy was I wrong.  I found the opposite to be true.  My thoughts became louder, the ‘to do’ list became longer, and the unfinished things that raced in my psyche just went on and on and on… like a freight train that just keeps going and going and going.  It was relentless and irritatingly frustrating to say the least. 

I gave up many times.  Many, many times.  I just didn’t understand why people could speak about meditation and how it helped them so much.  I felt like such a failure.  It just made things worse for me.  Then I enrolled in a meditation class.  I walked into a studio and paid them cash that day hoping that if I did what they told me it would all just go away, and I would get the answers.  And it helped, it didn’t cure my mindless activity, but it did help me begin to understand what was happening.  I discovered how our thoughts are an endless culmination of three aspects of the mind.  The negative, neutral, and positive mind.  That we have a negative mind; useful in protection and alerting us to something that is wrong or a threat.  We have a positive mind; useful in expanding a thought into possibilities instead of contrasting it into limitation and lastly, we have a neutral mind; helpful in deciphering the positive and the negative in relation to where we are now and what we choose our experience to become.  As we develop ourselves through meditation, we become aware of our positive and negative mind eventually finding the neutrality of it all by becoming aware of what we have been doing.  Then we realize we have choices on how we would like to shape our lives within our current states of awareness. 

Then I learned about breath work.  Practicing control of the breath through meditation.  As I learned and practiced more, I found that breath work controlled our life force.  The more I learned about breathing and how to control the different states of my breath the more I could control the different states of awareness within my mind.  Thus, I could choose the expansiveness of my energy.  Through breath awareness I could stimulate and enhance my energy thus adding more control to my thoughts, my energy, my reality. 

Then I found mudras and mantras.  I discovered that mantras are words or phrases that can be repeated aloud or to oneself with the rhythm of the breath, and mudras are the use of the hands to focus the brain.  I was skeptical at first, and the more I practiced I was surprised at how much better I felt, the lasting effects of the practices and the simplicity of it all.  I began to understand the helpfulness of my negative and positive minds and the innate ability of my neutral mind to intuitively focus.  I was amazed at how a simple practice of strengthening the breath, using mudras to stimulate the brain, and mantras creating a rhythm of internal wisdom within my body could create lasting effects.  I was hooked, to say the least.

Limiting beliefs haunting me for ages began to melt away, my energy returned, and my outlook on life improved.  What did I learn?  Life could change.  I had some sort of control and that I could shape my reality.  And I never needed to censor my thoughts, I needed to find the right practice for me. 

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If you are innately curious… I invite you to try a meditation class or practice at some point in your life.  I just happen to teach a couple at Trillium Yoga in Antioch, periodically.  Here are some dates… 5:45-6:45pm on 4/24, 5/8, & 5/22. OR try the online zoom meditation Wednesdays at lunch time… all you have to do is sign up at eventbrite here. I hope to see you soon!

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Living a life full of HEART FULL purpose…

Lately, I’ve been running through all the scenarios in my head of how I could have, would have, should have done things differently in the past. All the past experiences and decisions that I made that turned out the way they did and happened in the manner they happened.

Some were wonderful outcomes and aligned with my inner truth and some were decisions that I am not so proud about. It’s those decisions that never really turned out the way I had hoped that I live in regret. And I know that living in regret doesn’t really help us to move forward in a positive and uplifting manner. But I have to admit… like many of us… I’ve been doing this to myself again and again.

I approach these scenarios with my mind, and I tune into my heart that longed for a different outcome. I ask myself if there is anything I could have done differently, and I always see it as a, “Yes.” A resounding, “Yes.” Not the kind of ‘yes’ that wants to beat myself up with judgement but the kind of ‘yes’ that sees with new eyes now how there are so many roads to our destination before us that we get to pick and choose which journey we’d like to embark.

Do we want our road to be rocky, deserted, painful and full of regrets? Or do we want our road to be synchronized, effortless and free to fly and be me?

You see… I was thinking… pondering this idea and it occurred to me… every decision I ever made, every idea that ever came to me, and every detail of my life always came down to my internal questions from within…. The big one… the ultimate question that maybe we all struggle with from time to time…. What is my PURPOSE? Why am I here and what is my LIFE MISSION? Related all together… what is my Life Mission and how am I going to live my life through this life mission that I am realizing before me?

Every experience I have ever had, every failure, and every perceived success has come back to this internal question. Am I making decisions in line with my highest potential and highest purpose at the time that I make these decisions or am I experiencing a lower version of me that is covered in fear and doubt?

Well, once I broke that down and realized that… I began to understand… I mean truly understand why I do what I do and all the programs I have that really do work. It’s because, I just believe… I believe so much that anything is possible, and we have a beautiful world of all possibility that is reflected upon us based on our own beliefs and ideas about life that I only live what I completely believe in every moment, every hour, every day, and every year. Doing anything less just doesn’t work anymore. And deciding that I am leading my best life and helping anyone who wants to come along IS MY PURPOSE!

WOW…Does that feel good! The kind of good that we just want to SHOUT FROM THE MOUNTAIN TOP OUT TO THE GRAND CANYONS OF THE WORLD!

THIS IS ME!

This is what I want for you TOO!

I have one question I live with daily…. “In all that I AM… Am I living, breathing, and walking my life mission and am I in alignment with this?”

Most times now I can say yes…and when I can’t answer with a resounding ‘yes’ I now know how to shift myself into that alignment, effortlessly.

And I guess… I just want everyone else to know this and feel this and be this as well. I just want the empowerment flame to be passed along form one person to the next and for all, everyone to feel as though they can express themselves to their highest version out into a world that WANTS to receive the beauty of their uniqueness shine through! I believe in this world… I believe it exists. I believe everyone has their version according to where they are and what they came to experience. I believe in you.

MY MISSION?

Is to take you there…

So… If you are innately curious on how to live the highest and best version of yourself according to what you internally know to be true and you want that revealed to yourself on your terms and to be lead guided and directed by someone and a group of people that wants to support and encourage you on this path…then…

I invite you to jump in and join me for the SANDWICH CONNECTION… how to heart fully manifest your life.

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If you want more information… I am doing two more calls on Friday at lunch time and Saturday morning… her are the links…

Lunch Time Hello, April 21, 12-1:00pm, Sandwich Connection Heartful Manifestation Information Session  https://www.eventbrite.com/e/619297634897

Good Morning Hello, April 22, 9-10:00am, Sandwich Connection Heartful Manifestation Information Session https://www.eventbrite.com/e/619277494657

Please join me and I’ll explain the entire program to the best of my ability… because there really is so much to it…

AND INVITE YOUR FRIENDS!

LET’S SHARE THE FUN.

I hope you can make it…

Any questions?

Reach out…

And again, here are the event bright links… tell me you’ll come!

Lunch Time Hello, April 21, 12-1:00pm, Sandwich Connection Heartful Manifestation Information Session  https://www.eventbrite.com/e/619297634897

Good Morning Hello, April 22, 9-10:00am, Sandwich Connection Heartful Manifestation Information Session https://www.eventbrite.com/e/619277494657

I cant wait to share with you why I believe so strongly in you and the community we are creating.

Just in case you already KNOW you want to join…here is the website sign up payment link

That’s all for now…

Eternally yours IntuitLove

Jennifer

PS… don’t forget to sign up for the lunch time meditations…even if you are not going to be a prat of the Sandwich Connection… this is still something you can join!

Here is the link…

Lunch Hour Weekly Meditation & Manifestation Group, Wednesday, April 26th 12-12:45pm https://www.eventbrite.com/e/596336597817

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We need more BIG Kids on this planet to help us small people feel like its ok…

Yesterday, I met with an old friend.  This man, this amazing being of light is a brother of mine.  We have known each other a few years, and I have known him in another lifetime for sure, if you believe in that sort of thing.  Just a lovely being.  Yes. 

He is a musician you see.  A glorious eclectic musician who follows his beautiful passion for music.  As a self-taught musician, he travels the vast Chicago area bringing his gifts to others.  He shares his tapestry of musical compositions with others, for no apparent reason other than to give love and share his passionate heart through his art.  A beautiful musician and a beautiful way to live. 

Every Thursday he invites people to his abode to just be.  A ‘by appointment & get to know you’ session with no agenda.  Let’s just sit and get to know each other.  Just refreshing.

His only expectation is to just share stories.  Sit as long as you like, allow the conversation to just emerge, and just enjoy the company.  To say the least… it was delightful.  We filled our time with amazingness.  Amazing ideas, amazing passions, and amazing effortless love.  Whatever wanted to come in…came and the conversation just became more all on its own.  We held space for each other and delighted in our similar and different views on life.  It was an eloquent orchestration of heart spoken words deeply meaningful and profoundly elaborate.  Sometimes we agreed and sometimes we didn’t.  Accepting and allowing the flow to take us wherever it wanted to go.  As if we were riding a smooth riverbed filled with possibility.  I felt seen, heard, and accepted…something that has been estranged to me for so long.  I was grateful.

You see, a long time ago, feels like lifetimes ago… I lost my family.  To pain, heartache, and mental instabilities that we label as addictions and mental illness in today’s modern world.  Growing up, it was a very tough life.  Very tough.  Lots of heart ache, pain, and tragedy.  As I grew up, more tragedy perused my life in many ways.  I had been given many obstacles in most of my life to overcome.  I eventually wrote a book on the subject thinking this would help my troubles… and hopefully help others in similar situations.  And it did… for awhile… until I realized that my limitations were exactly that… my own… and writing a book would not solve the issue but changing my perception did.  So, even to this day… I use all the gifts that were bestowed upon me to help me through troubling times and to keep shifting my perception so that nothing equaled a limitation anymore.  Truly coming to terms with the struggles I felt like I had to face and turning the struggles into vast landscapes of possibilities. 

I heard an author say that he had many ideas.  So many ideas that were so inspiring that it was a burden at times.  Kind of like… I can do so MANY things and there are so MANY possibilities… how do I get them all done?  That was anxiety producing.  It felt like a responsibility… much like the responsibilities we put on ourselves to make it in this world or follow the path that we think we are supposed to do.  I really related to that.  For me, it’s like walking into a SUPER TARGET… I get overwhelmed by the number of choices.  I don’t want to choose between 50 types of tomato sauce… I just want the one that was made out of passion and love by the individual who made it. 

This author had a remedy for his perceived limitation… the number of great ideas that he had.  He started a folder.  He called it ‘Great Ideas’ that would take some time to develop and bring into fruition.  Then he would store these ideas and periodically look at them.  After a while some of them that were ‘great’  would just seem not so great anymore and others would continue to remain ‘great’.  The ones that hung out and knocked on his passion door are the ones he would choose to develop over time.  And this worked for him. 

This helped me a lot.  I started applying this same idea to my life.  Instead of looking at everything as another limitation that I had to overcome I started choosing differently.  I started choosing whether I needed to go that direction or this one. I started choosing for me again. 

Probably because I am just at that point in my life now.  My role as a Mother has shifted tremendously and I no longer have to do the things I did before to help the people in my life in the way that I used to.  I chose to do it this way… and now I can choose again. 

So here I was choosing to spend time with a marvelous musician who has always looked at life that way.  Free to be himself in good times and bad.  Just expressing his creativity and allowing life to take him down the riverbed of mystery.  What a glorious concept. 

Inspired I was… to say the least.  In that moment… I made a decision that would change my life.  I decided to live again in the way that felt good to me. To just continue to be me and allow my gifts to go where they are asked for with no expectation in return. 

I am beginning again… this time I am looking at my life as a beautiful piece of music that keeps moving and shifting, and changing, and traversing through the compilation called ‘living’.  And it is uniquely my own. 

That’s the beauty of spending time with people.  We can just be ourselves.  Just coming together and getting to know each other.  It’s magical. 

A lot of us grow up thinking we must be someone or something when we get older.  Ugh… I think that is a lofty idea and it is hard for me to understand why people want to GROW UP.  I just want to be a kid forever.  Play in the sunshine, sink in the mud, and sing to the moon.  Effortless and free.  We need more of that… we need more BIG Kids on this planet to help us small people feel like its ok.  And then maybe there would be a beautiful piece of music that has the potential to tune our hearts to a profoundly incredible world.  Wouldn’t that be amazing!? 

Maybe more of us would be a lot happier and feel a lot better if we gave ourselves permission to be more of who we wanted to be instead of what everyone else wanted us to become.  Maybe all we needed was for someone to tell us that this is a choice we can actually make… at any age.  Plain and simple… be more of you.   Just being you and doing more of what you love… repeatedly will eventually lead you to everything you ever thought you needed.  And you know what happens then… you begin to really live again. 

All my love,

Jennifer Lauren

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Continue to Cultivate Your Diamond through…

mental balance & an intuitive heart

Ever since I wrote my last blog on gratitude it made me think…how much time do I spend in my head avoiding my heart?  I wondered what percentage of my day I spend in the part of my mind that remains negative in just about any situation appearing before me.  I also wondered with all the years of reiki yoga, and meditation training if I was allowing complete balance through all the parts of my mental mind and intuitive heart.   So, I simply sat down during one of my meditative practices and asked.  I didn’t receive an answer right away.  Normally, I don’t. Typically, answers come to me through experiences.  This time the universe seriously answered me through an experience I will never forget…

I was traveling to Dallas with my daughter.  We had an early flight at O’Hare airport in Chicago getting us into Dallas with plenty of time to pick up our prepaid car rental and check in at our host hotel for her AAA hockey tournament.  She plays upper level hockey and often has to travel around the country.  We had planned everything in advance and all our arrangements were secured. 

That morning flight, the universe began answering my request to know if I had improved over the years with my practices.

It first began at airport security.  Things seemed unusually tense that morning.  Not as many airline agents were helping with bag checks which made check in a bit confusing and the airport seemed to be busier than normal with rushing people.  After sifting through the initial confusion, I began to realize that this was going to be an unusually intense morning.  We were able to find help in checking my daughter’s rather large hockey bag and made it to security check point.  Shocked to find out that security officers were making people line up shoulder to shoulder and walk down a 20 foot long carpeted path reminding us to stay in line and next to the stranger you were paired with.  If we unknowingly walked more than 6 inches ahead of the person, we were next to, we were reprimanded to stay orderly.  I was separated from my daughter which gave me anxiety and feeling like we were immigrating to a foreign country.  As we walked down shoulder to shoulder the 20 foot gray carpeted path we were electronically scanned, recorded on video cameras, and sniffed by police dogs for anything that we could be illegally carrying.  The experience was enough to send someone with mild anxiety into a tail spin.  Next we were instructed to place all our belongings on the radar belts and walk quickly through the monster Xray scanners.  After the initial interrogating 20 foot walk the normal Xray scan seemed a bit heightening in anxiety.  Empathically, I feel everything and the amount of energy running through my body was insurmountable at times. 

My heart was pounding and my body ached with sorrow as I watched each person receive micro traumas as they passed through something that has become acceptable practice in our society.  Children were upset and parents did the best they could to manage a difficult situation. I ached with remorse with what seemed like an enormous dark cloud sweeping across the airport. 

Amid what was happening, I reminded myself of the practice.   Immediately I silently announced to myself, “Thank you God.”  And like I tell my students in yoga and meditation classes… “Keep Up!”  And I did just that… I kept up… I kept focused on my breath pattern and focused on all the sensations that were happening within me and all around me.  I became completely aware.   

I used the breath…

I inhaled deeply through my nose for a count of four…1, 2, 3, 4.

I suspended my breath (held the breath) for a count of four… 1, 2, 3, 4.

I slowly exhaled for a count of four… 1, 2, 3, 4.

I suspended my breath out on the exhale for a count of four… 1, 2, 3, 4. 

I repeated this process from the time I was separated from Nora all the way through the cattle shoots and being birthed out to our final airplane gate. 

As I kept the breath going, I also silently added the mantra, “Sa Ta Na Ma” to the 4 counts.

It is a kundalini yoga mantra effectively able to bring in transformational energy. 

This added depth and strength to the breath pattern able to carry me further into what was happening and allowing everything to pass through.  My mind remained focused, my body balanced, and my heart strong. I was one with the process.

Wave after wave of sensation passed through my heart and body.  Step after countless step I remained present.  Consciously and consistently, I remained separate from the mental sea of judgment, panic, and anxiety surrounding the airport and uniquely within the light.  The public faces of shame, discontent, insecurity, and panic were subtle and yet intense.  I desired only to be light and help as much as I could.  Whether it was a smile to the security officer, a thank you, assisting other’s with their bags, or gathering the numerous large plastic bins to help put them aside.   

I consistently leaned into the resistance and allowed everything to become one.  The mantra and breath pattern helped me walk through a difficult time untouched. 

As we continued our travels… only running into another dilemma requiring more patience and more gratitude.  Apparently, when we arrived in Dallas… our prepaid car rental could not be honored for another 4 hours. 

Car and employee shortages as well as long wait times filled the airport.  Stress was high and waves of trauma coursed through the air. 

Wifi was spotty and communications were limited between people.  Anger and hostility were rampant.  I caught myself beginning to get swept away with the process. 

I grabbed onto my advice, after I realized the temptation before me to slip down the slippery slope of blame and desperation being created. 

Once again, I picked myself up with a, “Thank you God” and asked for guidance.  Instantly, I heard the mantra “Aap Sahaee Hoa” fill my body.

In kundalini yoga, it is a mantra that penetrates the unknown without fear and brings in protection, mental stability, and balance. 

Wave after wave of fear and intimidation swept through my body… every emotional instability of every person, place, and thing came through me… I kept up… I sunk into the mantra and I processed the grief.  I paused, I breathed.  I tuned in.  I kept the mantra up… sending light and allowing.  Tears came over and through me as I watched the people calm and the energy shift and change all around me.  I breathed, I sensed, I remained present.  I felt more, sensed more, processed more.  Before long, the dark cloud that had consumed the area began to disappear, the desperation flattened, and community began to form.  People were striking up conversations, making personable connections, and taking the time to be together with complete strangers.  The air was cleared, and lightness began to prevail.

I was grateful.

Thank you…. Thank you…thank you.

Some of my teachers would tell me to keep strong and don’t allow these things to come near you.  And here is the problem with that… now more than ever we need people who do what I do in the midst of chaos to hold the light so that the light can come through.  It only takes one being to make the initial shift and the others join in as consciously we bring more light to very dark situations.  It can be done.  It only becomes easier and easier as we all awaken to the clouds of darkness that have had a hold on us for so long and keeping us where we are unconsciously aware of our true powers.  We have the power to transmute darkness.  We have the capacity to make change softly and with intelligence and wisdom through a lineage of masters that have come before us.  It is possible.  We first need to awaken.   

Hence, the mantras, the breath work, and my reiki training are what made me capable of doing what I did.  My prayers were answered though the experiences I was having.  I became awakened once more.  I needed that to happen.  I needed to allow myself to go through that experience and continue to learn what is possible.  Light will penetrate the darkest of places just by its presence.  It does not need to fight or claim to be right.  It just is.  It is quiet and powerful all on its own.  It is wisdom. 

Light brings rest to the unrest, worthiness to the unworthy, and security to the insecure.  Light always prevails.

And 4 hours later… we gratefully received the only car available and drove to our hotel. 

And I realized once again that the universe continues to amaze me.  Through awareness we continue to awaken to our true form and as we do we realize what is possible. I woke up that day, again.  As I continue to do every day, never knowing what will come but always having the balance of my mental mind and intuitive heart.  And even this is always a continual work in progress. 

Why do I share this story with you?  Because consciously and unconsciously we encounter these situations daily.  At work, in our communities, our homes and our families.  On larger or smaller scales.  It all adds up.  Micro trauma can build up and become a condition associated with post-traumatic stress disorders.  We need help, people need help, and support is available. 

This is why I teach.  Sharing Kundalini Yoga, Meditations & Mantras, Reiki, and Intuitive Readings & Energy Healing Sessions with one purpose; to awaken the power within you.  We can fish for others only for so long… the real miracle comes when you give others the tools and help them cultivate the knowledge already within. 

Reiki, meditation, mantras, and kundalini yoga are the tools and learning to use them to our advantage will only help us and society transform.  As we continue to walk through what is happening around us and within us these techniques add to our life and help us with our current professions.  It is as if we are learning the power of ourselves through the offerings and then able to transfer light into our own homes, careers, and communities. 

This month I invite you to join me in one of the following classes, events, or sessions.  As they are designed to teach how to become lighter and able to shift what may be happening within and all around you in your own unique way.  The teachings bring us purposeful true power.

Here are the April offerings…. (click the pictures for more information and sign up links)

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Become Strong As Diamonds

& Allow your Diamond to Take Shape!

Thoughts on Gratitude…

The other day, a client asked me, “Do you know anything about gratitude? And how does it work?”  To which I replied… “Oh yes!  Thank you for asking…gratitude does work!” 

And of course… I didn’t just stop there… I continued on… with one of my long winded answers. 

I just love it when people ask me questions… I tend to go on tangents and then always have to circle back and ask, “Did I answer your question completely?” I just get carried away with the winds of wisdom that blow on by with creative and fun answers that just hit me in the midst of conversations with clients, friends, and family. 

So… it got me thinking this week… how can I talk about gratitude in a simple form to help us all elevate and expand our experience?  Here goes…

I have to thank this client for asking me this question… little did this person know that they were my angel in disguise that day.  As soon as I was asked the question, I knew that my team of lightworkers were laughing at me going… “You see how you need to practice what you already know!”  I was drowning in my misery that day over several obstacles I kept running into!  And then this person called me with a question in the midst of a frustrating experience I was having in that moment!

Here’s the back drop of the story:

This particular day, I was out running errands finding myself repeatedly frustrated.  I was in the midst of changing over documents and signing papers at my local bank due to an official name change.  I never knew that doing a name change could be such a COMPLICATED process!

As it seems, our society either assumes that if one is changing their name it is either because of a divorce or a marriage.  To which I always had to further explain… neither… I just want to change my name to match more of who I am becoming… “Hmmm…I wondered if they thought I was crazy?” To which people mostly replied… “Why?”

I’m used to people asking me why… I usually have a different opinion than everyone else and seen as ‘curiously unusual’.  It was becoming more and more clear to me that when I decided to walk down this path of a name change that I really was an ‘interesting genre’.  LOL! 

Energy clients usually come to me with issues that have been ongoing or seeking a fresh perspective to a complicated problem and they need motivation to help bring ‘light’ to the situation. 

So, here I was faced with my own interesting situation that I had to bring in light.  We tend to see things in either ‘black’ or ‘white’ and I like to see colors.

I changed my name because I had always wanted to have a name that expressed the energy that resonates from me… uniquely my own and not something that belongs to anyone or anything else. So to me, it was a way to honor my birth family and married family by becoming vibrationally more of what I came here to express. I recently was ordained a spiritual name and felt the desire to integrate it into my first and middle name independent of any prior last names… why? It felt right.

So here I was… trying to explain again why I was doing what I was doing… and why it matters. 

We are based on vibration… everything we are, think, do, and say is based on a vibration that is within us and all around us.  Our vibration attracts more of what we are.  When we allow our vibration to keep climbing higher and higher we want the world around us and within us to reflect more of what we are at the current vibrational state.  We feel it within us and all around us when we walk into a room, visit a town, a friend, family member, or institution.  We are vibrational beings meant to express ourselves at our highest potential and what we feel, say, and do… matters.  As we grow in conscious awareness our vibrations climb and our lights shine.  In so doing we lift ourselves and the world around us as we become more of ourselves.  We naturally feel better and the world around us reflects that.  Soooo…. I wanted to change my name to the vibrational version of me that was emerging within me… and here I was trying to explain this to a bank… a difficult task to do in a few words…

So… after I had finished with the bank and trying to explain an unusual concept within me … I was feeling defeated… like I was having trouble expressing myself… and wondering what was happening within me… I felt like Pig Pen’s Charlie Brown character walking around with a cloud of rain over my head… like why doesn’t anyone see me?  And then suddenly… this person called…. And asked me the question that helped me snap back into place…

Back to Gratitude… and how it works…

After I got off the phone and finished explaining why gratitude matters… I realized I was trapped and not feeling grateful for my current experience… and “Walla!!!!” It hit me… I was having trouble seeing myself clearly so the people around me were reflecting back to me what was unclear about me. 

And then the light bulb went on… and I was SO THANKFUL for that seemingly difficult experience!

So… how does gratitude work?

Gratitude shifts your vibration.  In all moments and every moment.  As soon as you announce, “Thank you!” the universe responds with exciting enthusiasm back to you… you are announcing acceptance and the energy of higher awareness keeps moving towards you…. Even if the perceived event seems lower in vibration… the energy of the event automatically begins to change.  It shifts into a higher vibrational state to match the new energy you are announcing to the world… even during a seemingly dismal outcome… the energy begins to get lighter.   With an acknowledgement of this is happening ‘for me’ instead of ‘against me’.  Everything is happening for us… everything is happening because we have something we are learning or saying to ourself repeatedly within us… we are like tuning forks walking around in the world.  What comes to us is usually a vibrational match to our current state of awareness.  If we are seeing darkness all around us, it’s usually because our vibration is asking us to get stronger within our light.  Resonating on a high vibration can be a difficult adjustment at first.  It challenges us to keep shifting and moving to higher states of being.  It’s symbolic of the caterpillar transforming into a butterfly.  We need to work within ourselves to build our high vibrational tune so that we can transform our world into what we are longing to become… a butterfly uniquely our own… or maybe it is a tadpole into a frog… or any metaphor will do.  We all have a metamorphosis and why not allow ourselves to just go there?  Our vibrations do not match on purpose and we are here to respectfully create our world to become more of who we are and not what others believe us to be.  Nothing is wrong with that, and everything is RIGHT with that! 

Sometimes, the universe throws us an experience because we have big things to learn and sometimes it allows us to flow effortlessly because we have matched our new vibrational level and we are celebrating the vibration of our metamorphosis. 

So just remember… expressing gratitude always brings more gratitude and higher states of awareness.  So whether you acknowledge a deceivingly difficult time in your life with acceptance and gratitude or you are genuinely elated by achieving something monumental in your life… tune into the many colored versions of gratitude and just say “thank you” no matter what.  Allow yourself to become the diamond that is emerging within you.

And there is nothing more fun and joyful than living with clarity of what we love and expressing who we are in ways that allows others to be expressions of more of what they love in their way.

To become Strong as Diamonds… allow your diamond to take shape. 

Blessings,

Jennifer Joti Tajdeep Kaur Lauren

The White Wave of Crowning Light & Victory

Some offerings this week to help polish your diamond…

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Keep Going… raise yourself higher and higher. Seek to raise your vibration constantly and consistently. Even when you seem to have reached your ceiling… press on. Raise yourself so high that ceilings no longer exist and your limitless existence is all there is & as you do… remember this… In order to be the light that shines brightly you need to recognize your own light from within.

As we move into spring time… allow your rebirth to launch you into a new phase of your limitless life. Allow the universe to expand and show you where to go next.

Here are some offerings to help with expansion:

Meditation groups to inspire your best life. 1 of 3 locations

Wauconda Monthly every 3rd Monday – 3/20, 4/17 & 5/22

Monthly every 3rd Monday in person

Antioch 3/27, 4/10, 4/24, 5/8 & 5/22 (Monthly on 2nd & 4th Monday)

Antioch Trillium Yoga Monthly 2nd & 4th Mondays

Lunch hour energy clearings and meditations to manifest your best self – Zoom on Tuesdays beginning April 4th 11:30am-12:30pm.

Reiki classes to harness intuition and channel life force energy. Bring more balance, integration, and consciousness into your daily life. Black Cat Yoga Libertyville

Reiki 1 April 18 & 19 – 6-9pm

Reiki 2 (must have reiki 1 certificate) April 29th

Kundalini Yoga for self growth and prosperity consciousness in all areas of life. 6 weeks of the prosperity consciousness series. Master your breath, move the body, manifest your highest self.

As always Individualized Energy Healing Sessions provide clear guidance and energy healing for rapid transformation & expansion along your journey. Remote or in person (Lake County Areas)

Appointments

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Thoughts to Things, Light to Gray, It Matters

Take 5 minutes & Ponder this…

Thoughts are things.  They have an energy.  A force upon them that can either be good for us or not so good for us.  Let’s just say there are many shades of gray but there is only light.  There are many forms of light consciousness and they all become one form… light.  There are many forms of gray consciousness and they all become more gray.  Imagine this… when you put light together as in layers upon itself… it becomes more light.  It just shines and yet it shines ever so brighter.  Brighter and brighter and brighter… It just keeps becoming more of itself.  In the process of becoming more light it allows light to penetrate through every obstacle and anything perceived less than itself.  It keeps becoming more… effortlessly moving into various places only penetrable by the light.  Only light can go where it has never been before.  It does not harm, and it does not force, it just is.  It doesn’t make anything turn into itself… it shines a light on the darkest of places so that everything can be seen.  It illuminates awareness and sight.  It shows us what was there all along.  That it has been there all along…just waiting to penetrate deeper and deeper.  Light transforms darkness, gives us the opportunity to see and be seen, and then it is our choice to become more light or not.  To be or not to be.  That is the question, is it not?  Once we see, once we awaken to higher and higher forms of light we can never return to what was once there.  The darkness forever goes and no matter how hard we try to make the light go away… it just grows. 

This is just as true for gray… gray matter collectively becomes more gray and then just becomes darkness.  It covers like a blanket of deep darkness as it slumbers us into a state of unconscious.  That’s ok.  We can accept this, because sometimes we need the darkness.  We need to rest, recover, and blend in.  To just be in a state of being with nothing to be, do, or know.  We accept this… and we continue.  We eventually remember, it’s only a blanket, temporarily covering our light. When we return to who we are, the blanket is removed. And when we know this we realize our world is full of these polarities. We can see the beauty in all of it, that’s when we truly awaken.  We see that there has always been something guiding us towards this balance.  This perfect dance that we do to truly encompass all that we are.  It’s only when we fear the darkness & fear the fear itself that we limit ourselves the experience of going through the darkness.  Within the dark there are lessons to learn, experiences to feel, and sensations to learn. And only through respect for the darkness can we return once again to more of what we would like to become. 

Many of us, most of us are some spectra of light.  There are times when it seems as though darkness has taken over forever, and this is just the illusion.  The illusion of polarity.  We seek to return to the balance and even pure light travels into dark places just as dark ones eventually seek to return to the light.  It’s all the same just polarity taking its course in many shades of gray.  Eventually becoming light. 

Quite honestly, I enjoy polarity.  I enjoy one spectrum versus the other and sometimes I need a little dark to understand who I truly am… pure light.  Eventually, this will no longer be so.  I will continue to walk the path of light and just continue to be more light without the dark.  Only with one purpose, to be the light for others to do the same and to see the consciousness within themselves that has always been there.  Just like Dorothy and the Wizard of Oz… the magic was always there, your ruby slippers were always the way home dear one, you just needed the journey to understand who you truly are; light. 

If you are looking for more… to be more, experience, more and to become more of that which you believe yourself to be I invite you to experience light in many forms… all spectrums of light… here are just a few ways… ongoing possibilities available to you and my honor to offer to you. 

With humbled blessings….

Sat Nam

Namaste

Please & Thank you,

Amen.

Jennifer     

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Merging with Consciousness

10 minutes to inspire your intuitive abilities… this is an excerpt from the ‘Becoming Intuitive’ program accessible as a ‘study on your own’ with 1:1 personal support from me. Enjoy the gift…

Many of us just want to know… “How do we become conscious and intuitive in every moment?”

Only in the awakening, can we become the consciousness that resides intuitively within us. 

As we become conscious and intuitive in nature, we recognize that our true power comes from the sensations of the body, which naturally tunes us into this knowing.  This is the self-connected internal knowing recognized as the triad of consciousness spoken about earlier.  It is not necessary to have all our energy systems in our body perfectly aligned nor must we be well versed in metaphysical concepts.  Rather it is more helpful to NOT have any type of metaphysical or spiritual background.   When we have studied and become well versed in metaphysical, religious, or spiritual concepts we run the risk of ‘knowing it all’.   We run the risk of already knowing everything and having all the answers.  We stop believing.  This is the mind keeping us limited.  This work is not for the mind.  The minute we ‘know it all’ we lose our connection with consciousness.  In this work we know nothing with the mind and the sensations of our body become the keys to our release. 

Through sensation we can resolve and release that which is unknown to us, which keeps us where we are.  In essence the key is to sense that things are already ‘taken care of’ because we are tuned into and tapped into something greater than us.  Even if we do not know what that is or believe that there is something greater, we still receive help and we still receive our shift in consciousness.  Conscious intuition is without the mind.  It is guidance felt through the heart and opening us to an expansion unidentified by form.  It surprises us with humble confirmation that as we follow our ‘knowing’ we come across answers to dilemmas that are beyond our rational mind. 

For example, some very important information came to me for over a month about ‘narcissistic’ personality traits.  I did not know why I was receiving this information, nor did I understand the connections at first.  I simply found myself very aware that I kept receiving this information from various sources.  Simultaneously, there was a certain person in my life I felt was not completely genuine and I understood I did not need to judge.  Instead, I remained present with an open heart.  Later, I began to realize, before a ‘partnership’ advanced with this person, that I was dealing with a narcissist personality. Throughout this experience, I sat with myself in the not knowing of what was unfolding before me, and allowed the experience to happen.  There were many instances that felt confusing during our interactions.  Why was it that in some situations this person felt life affirming and in other situations it felt consuming and depleting?  Why was it that my ears heard what they were saying but the energy behind their words was of a different intention?  I continued to sit with myself, breathe through these confusing moments of fear, and allowed my insecurities and feelings of instability to rise up to the surface of my being.  I never asserted myself from a place of needing to be right no matter how I felt.  I remained neutral and unreactive.  I waited and sensed within what was next before going forward. Through simply confirming the conscious intuitive knowing from within and following through with ‘NO’ action I received answers and found the solutions to my dilemma. 

I affirmed ‘no action’ by not going further with a partnership.  What this person was promising verbally was not truthful and conscious intuition was clearly guiding me to walk away; no matter what resistance I encountered.  My resistance was the clearing that needed to happen of a learned belief stored away in my past and no longer serving my world today.  My heart felt contracted and tight.  My guides showed me nothing every time I asked for them to show me the next steps to take.  I received nothing and therefore was to do nothing.  Believe me…this was a true test of my ability to allow the embodied 6th sense to reveal the reality of the situation. This ‘spiritually enlightened person’ was not to be trusted.  Things are not always what they appear to be.  I later learned that if I had gone forward with a partnership there would have been much deception and financial strain.  Our intuition knows the truth behind all actions and senses this through the heart of consciousness.  It is sometimes very quiet, and it is always there in truth.

Ultimately, we may begin to understand our outer experiences are a representation of our subconscious beliefs. When we finally realize and wake up to our awareness, we begin to embrace a powerful part of ourselves.  As we practice, the illusion of searching falls away.  We are no longer unconsciously searching to confirm our old beliefs and conform to the outside.  In essence we are being where we are with our truest intentions because we are more in line with our authentic self.  We are the being.  It is in here that we embrace our soul’s purpose. 

The person who is sweeping streets may be more consciously alive and in tune with their purpose than the person who is working the stock market and making millions of dollars.  It all depends on where we are and if we are in alignment with our truth.  Do we need confirmation and conformity or can we exist in our current relationships with our own awakened connection?

When my child throws a tantrum on the floor of the grocery store is my love for them dependent on their behavior or does it always exist.  Am I able to hold myself in that love and come from a place of consciousness to help them or am I troubled and caught up in the situation trying to control their behaviors?  We do this in relationships.  When there is a discussion between two people.  Can we be in our conscious knowing that what is happening within us has nothing to do with the other person but rather something of our own that is bubbling up to be revealed.  If we remain conscious, we connect in moments of fear and love without judgment and with invested interest that we are working towards a greater cause.  The light of our consciousness never fails.  It does not control, and it does not judge.  It holds no grudges, nor does it resent and place itself in a form of self-defense.  It shines in complete acceptance of itself and the world around.

A flower that grows in the forest does not dwell on the idea that it may be the only flower for miles in a sea of trees and tall grasses.  It grows where it is in a state of unconditioned reverence for its existence where it is.  We are the experience.  Our state of being determines nothing and everything at the same time.  Our desire for consciousness determines nothing.  When we are being, we realize that all that is happening has nothing to do and no way to control.  It just is. 

Here is your practice for the day…

With every situation, which arises, and every condition that happens…be.  Just be.  Offer no advice or try to determine the best outcome to take.  Just allow things to unfold on their own with a state of conscious peace.  If a business partner is unraveling frustration over a situation and is looking for approval from you to make a decision to go in a direction that is unclear…then just pause. 

Pause…breathe…excuse yourself…and take a walk.  This is possible.  In a moment that one must make a decision because it is a life-threatening situation we need to act without hesitation, for sure.  This is NOT what I am referring to.  In these cases, our survivor instincts kick in and we are to follow through for sure.  I am speaking of the idea that we do not need to make decisions when someone else is pressuring us to do so because of their perceived time frame.  We must sense our way and feel what is happening within us.  Connect in our triad of super consciousness and become our purpose in every moment.  Ask yourself, “Am I living my purpose in this moment?  How can I be in this moment and be aligned with my highest purpose? How do I remain aligned right now?  How do I become more in tune with the true purpose in my life? Who am I in this moment? Who am I truly? Who am I?” 

One may continue to wonder, “Why we ask so many questions directed at the self and our own actions?”  Well, the only thing we have control over in our life is ourselves.  Even our own self-perceived control is a mystery.  When we come to this level of consciousness, we come to the realization we control nothing and the only power we have is in a triad with all that is.  We are connecting and being in every moment.  No matter what.  When we pause to ask ourselves the questions, we also find that our heartbeat slows down, our vision opens up, our ears keenly become aware of our surroundings and our digestion rests where we are.  We become one with timelessness and understand that the perception of urgency is not based on anything but human creation.  That in the realm of space and time there really is no space and time.  It is here that we have access to all possibility.  It is in this moment that the connections are happening all around us and our new reality lines up. 

When we realize there is a human unconsciousness that is always trying to figure things out, we are in that state, always.  We never allow for miracles, and we never allow for any other possibilities because we are energetically sending out the message to the universe that ‘we’ve got this all figured out already’ and ‘we don’t need the help’.  Thus, we have intentionally cut off the supply of miracles, which now has no room to show up.  When we pause and respond in a new way of being that is heart centered, we detach from the collective unconscious.  In that detachment we automatically begin to realign with something greater, conscious, and intuitive. 

Imagine unplugging from the collective unconscious of the business entity on purpose.  We unplug ourselves so that we can lead in a higher way.  When we unplug, we are allowing ourselves to fly above situations and see from the bird’s eye view.  If we are so attached to the collective unconscious of that entity we can never actually see from outside the picture.  We are always inside the framework of what we perceive to be happening and thus remain in the box full of ideas that are only available where we are.  When we unplug and allow ourselves to breathe, walk, tune in, and separate in a way that connects us to our intuitive consciousness, we are tuning into something bigger than all of us.  We are aligned with consciousness that has the highest and best interest for everyone and everything and then we allow for the highest and best possible outcome to be available to us.  We may not understand ‘how’ or know ‘why’, at first.  But this is the process of opening and becoming reconnected.  Remember, the journey always unfolds exactly as it is supposed to.  As we reconnect to ourselves, we reconnect to allowing flow back into our live.  We are guided and directed.  We lead others as we are led in a new way.  We are that which we seek, as we trust, the path will unfold.  It’s in the attempt to find, that we keep searching.  When we cease from searching, we finally realize we were already there. 

Today.  Our mission is to continue to merge with consciousness.  Walk amongst nature.  Sit with a flower.  Be with the Earth.  Feel the sensations of consciousness all around.  In the wind, the trees, the grass, the flowers, the smells, etc.  Be with the aliveness all around.  It is in the fish within the fishbowl, the dog near you, and the plant by your bedside table.  It is the aliveness that is the living consciousness in everything.  If you can take some time to sit with a tree…close your eyes and imagine yourself merging with her.  Be in the tree…imagine yourself being the tree trunk and expanding your arms up to the sun and your legs running deep into the Earth.  Be.  Be the grass.  Be a blade of grass… reaching high to the sky and rooted within the dirt below.  Wave with the wind.  Feel the expansion.  The aliveness of nature is the aliveness of consciousness.  It is all around us. 

Bring nature into your home.  Have potted plants in the office to remind you of who you are.  Find rocks to place around, these are the elements of this great universe, and decorate the computer screen with mountains, and streams, and organic materials.  Be connected to all that is and allow reminders all around the environment.  This fosters connection to the world within and subtly fosters the knowing that everything that is in this world is not of this world.  You are not of this world and certainly we all will be going to another place when we are gone.  Ask yourself, “What is my purpose?  Who am I meant to be and am I becoming what I am?  What is this?  Who am I?  How do I know this?”  In asking these questions…don’t wait for answers just sense the aliveness within and around you.  Continue to ask, ‘Do posing these questions arise any unsatisfied emotions? In posing these questions do I feel a shift in how I relate to others?  Has my perception as to what is important and non-important changed?  In asking these questions do I feel any different about life?  Am I able to connect with the world around me in a new light?’ 

In posing these fundamental questions of existence we are in essence acknowledging the action in non-action.  This is how conscious intuition can help us be more productive than the mind alone.  When we merge with consciousness we are disconnecting from the collective unconscious, and we then can lead guide and direct from a far greater evolutionary position than anyone has ever been able to do before. 

People begin to look at us differently because they can feel a shift.  Those that are beginning waking up to their own consciousness may be very inquisitive.  They may ask what we have been doing and how come we look so much better.  We may not notice the shifts in ourselves, but they will.  Some that are fear based will wonder if we are ok and if we need to talk to someone about what is going on in our life.  Just smile and thank them for their concern and assure them you have never felt clearer about your life and the purpose of your work.  Most people will be curious of your newfound strength and peace.  Your openness to creativity will produce inspired answers to problems that came from something outside of the unconsciousness that was residing in the current institution that you work.  Your contributions will be conscious and different.  Consciousness is in everyone and everything and when it begins to wake up it spreads easily and fast as if you turned a light on in a room.  Remember, you are not shifting anyone, and it is not your job to preach what they should do.  Your path is your own and theirs is their path.  We spread the inspiration and intuitive consciousness by being this ourselves and connecting at heart-to-heart levels with everyone around us no matter what.  We accept everyone for who they are, and we attempt to change no one.  This is truly conscious and heart full living.  This is living without ego and without the form-based perception that most of humanity is attached to.  We are formless.  When we leave the Earth, we do not take our bodies with us.  The aliveness is no longer in the body that we left but that does not mean we are not alive. 

Today, just for now.  Be.  Merge with your consciousness by purposefully being in nature to merge with nature and practice in the most complex situations that may emerge in relationships throughout your day.  Practice many of the techniques we have learned the past 3 weeks.  Keep merging with your life as an intuitive tapped in and tuned into ‘being’.  IN-Joy life. In-Joy-Ing life is the being of joy.  So, In-joy today. 

When complex situations emerge… take care of yourself…take a breath, excuse yourself, walk, give yourself space and a moment to allow yourself to merge again with your spirit.  Then come back without an answer.  There is no need to force, and everyone has the right to moments.  It is one of the greatest gifts to give our self and our emergence into a conscious life. 

Today is about merging.  Tomorrow we will practice how to be one with this newfound awareness and we will practice opening to more enlightened ways of listening and tuning into our connection. 

Today’s Mantra

Just for now, in this now moment, I merge with consciousness. 

Just for now, in this now moment, I merge with consciousness.

Just for now, in this now moment, I merge with consciousness.

What is Reiki?

Reiki is a Japanese form of healing for stress reduction & relaxation bringing balance and healing to the entire human energy system in all areas of life.  Mental, Emotional, Physical, & Spiritual issues are all addressed and helped with a Reiki practice.  It is complete health and healing to the body, mind, and soul. 

  • Reiki is for physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual imbalances. 
  • Reiki facilitates self-healing, the healing of your business, your life work, & the healing of your family.
  • Reiki helps our careers, families, relationships, prosperity. 
  • Reiki is empowering. It increases the energy of our healing potential and symbiotically helps the people, places, and things that surround us. 

How it works:  To perform Reiki, you must be attuned by a master to the higher frequencies of the energy.

There are three levels to Reiki.  Each Level must be completed in sequential order.  Reiki 1, 2, and 3.

Reiki 1 is being offered 2/10 & 2/11 in Wauconda, contact me to sign up

Reiki 1 is also being offered 2/14 & 2/15 in Libertyville, go to this link to sign up

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